Today was a challenge for me. I hurt all over and my reaction to it is to want to eat to "ease the pain"......comfort eat! I know in my head that it doesn't work that way but my body is telling me different. I didn't cave in too much...I did have coffee and a doughnut after a healthy low calorie lunch though. I did not get in any exercise today....I could barely move. I hope tomorrow will be better.
I have just begun this journey to healthy living and have so far to go....

Weigh-in Day...

I'm feeling a bit better today and not so bloated. I have been drinking more water and getting some exercise. I worked out for an hour on Wednesday and was going to do more but, I got too tired and never went back on the floor after getting a drink. I took a 30 minute walk today with my dog.....she about pulled me over a couple of times.

I can't believe it...I got on the scale today after seriously considering skipping weigh-in today....because of the bloating. Well, I stayed the same......I thought I was going to gain soooo much this week. February has been a really bad month for me. Every time I think I am going to get busy losing weight by a certain date (a couple I had set in my mind for March) I really do bad!! I think it is the pressure I put on myself or something.....it's a never ending battle in myself. Maybe if I just go back to my original plan of just losing 5 lbs. at a time with no time limit. Maybe that would get me back on a losing track!?! I'm stuck and getting frustrated with myself. I need a pick-me-up!

from good to BAD...

Friday was such a good day. Saturday I felt terrible all day and felt like I could not get enough to eat. I had a headache all day and hurt everywhere... nothing helped. Sunday came too quickly! I napped after church. On Monday I woke up my feet did not fit in my shoes!!! I can't even make a fist with my hands.....I am retaining so much water!!!! I do not even want to attempt to get on the scale. My week was going so good but then I let things get outta whack and here I am all puffy. Trying to drink lots of water and eat healthy things (having a hard time keeping to it though). I need a pick-me-up!!

I did have something interesting to share.....I did something I never thought I would ever do this last week.....I worked at and attended a ROCK Concert......a CHRISTIAN ROCK CONCERT!!! It was exciting!!!
What have you done lately that is exciting and different??



These guys are reaching the youth of our nation with their music and a word from God!

good Friday...

I had a great day today! I got up and exercised for 45 minutes to start my day. I drank water and made mostly healthy food choices....I did eat an oatmeal raisin cookie when I was really hungry today....it was the only thing I could find in the car to eat and I hadn't eaten in 4 hours. I do feel good about it though because I didn't stop at a fast food drive in on my way home and it did have grains and fruit in it.....no chocolate.

I took my kids to a movie and then to get one of them their driving permit and the other one to get a haircut. My youngest had a party to go to but it got cancelled. We had a fun day though. I took my son to get a haircut at the mall...my sister works there. So, while we were waiting for his "cool orange streak" to get colored she trimmed my hair and curled it for me.....bouncy curls. :)
(check out the picture.....the curls are starting to loose their bounce by the time I took the picture)

Weigh-in Day...

I gained .2 of a pound this week. Not a big gain but, the third gain in a row! I haven't been as dedicated lately to making healthy choices, I have been letting the busyness of life get in the way. I am going to focus on me more and do things to take care of me in the middle of this busyness of life. That is one of my goals...to take care of me, I deserve it.

I found myself indulging a bit too much and too often in things I used to do like...eating chips....eating cookies and candy and coffee cake this week. When I checked into the HYC on tuesday it really helped me get back on track and to realize what I was doing was not good.

I deserve the gain that I had this week and hope to have a loss next week! I have already boosted up my activity.

I hope everyone is doing good this week and if not now is a good time to turn it around...don't wait till the next meal or tomorrow...start now! :)

what do I say ????......

I checked into the HYC last night....it is so good to see all the people working so hard on being healthy. I have not given up, I have just been extremely busy. I thought I would have more time to post after the holidays and being sick but I guess I was wrong. I miss being on here....blogging has helped to keep me accountable and to give me inspiration and motivation. I have been lacking in both of these since I have not been on here as much.

In the last week I have had 4 people notice that I have lost some weight. This is always a hard subject for me because I have tried to not let people know that I am trying to eat healthy. This was purely a personal decision based on my past with family and friends trying to tell me what I should and shouldn't eat and with people telling me what I can and can't eat instead of just leaving it up to me. I have had much better success doing it this way because if I want to have a piece of cake or some pizza I can choose to have it and not have others telling me "you can't eat that....you're on a diet!!" (like I didn't know). Now those people are starting to notice that I have lost some weight and I'm not prepared with what to say to them. Most of the time I have been able to just put them off and say things like "oh, no I don't know what you are talking about but thank you anyway" when they ask if I've been loosing weight. I don't want to lie but I need to have the power to make my own choices. It is getting harder because people are no longer asking but plain out noticing and saying things like "you have lost alot of weight...you look good" well, how do I respond?? I told someone this week "you just haven't seen me in a while".......I am at a loss for words.....I know I can't keep it a secret as I continue to lose but what do I say???

I haven't been as motivated lately. I have not been making as good of choices this week and I have not been exercising this week either. I worked all week for our church garage sale unpacking and organizing things for about 5 hours a day. I don't have a job outside of my home so this was quite different for me and it really opened my eyes to how you have to be prepared with your food so you can have healthy things around you. It gave me a new respect for those of you that are at work all day. I said I didn't exercise but I was moving all day while I was unpacking and organizing items for the sale, and cleaning up. Oh, and I guess I did go to class once last week on Wednesday.....I forgot about that.

All the compliments that I have gotten this week really make me want to work harder. I hope I can make use of this new motivation!!