50 POUNDS LOST!...

I weighed in today not expecting to lose. I had a lot of stress this week and did not work very hard at losing weight. Well, I did it, I lost 1.6 pounds! Not a big loss but, that little loss put me at 50 POUNDS LOST! I can't believe it! My head is spinning and I'm not sure how I feel excited, nervous, scared, unsure....I know this all sounds strange....I should be elated!! and inside I am but, I'm feeling so many other emotions too. I'm 44 years old and haven't been at this weight since I was a freshman in high school. So many things are changing....clothes are not fitting.....I'm not sure what to wear....I'm not sure how I truley look. These are all good things and mean that I am losing weight but, at the same time some of them can be frustrating....like when you think you know what you are going to wear to church and then when you put it on it is too big and now you have no idea what to wear. I have always been used to wearing big baggy things to hide all the rolls and now I'm thinking I can wear more fitted things but I'm not sure how I truly look. Do I look good....or do I look like a fat person squeezing into something small ???? I need to get a grip on my self image!!! Yes, I have been overweight all my life and I'm still overweight but now I am 50 pounds lighter and I am feeling better about myself than I have in a long time and I want to feel like I look good!
Thank you to all of you for the encouragement that I have needed so badly.
Hope you all have a great week

tough week...

I have had a tough week emotionally. My eating seems to be ok and my exercise is ok....neither one has been really great but no big down falls. As a result of that I managed to lose another 2 pounds this last week. Yay, for two more pounds gone! That makes me really close to losing 50 pounds!! one more pound to lose! that's exciting and scary and puts me in a long lost territory. I weigh less now than when I got married 23.5 years ago.
I have been overwhelmed with the amount of things I have to do at this time of year. School is starting and I am once again not organized......feeling alot of pressure from outside influences on this one. Every time I turn around someone is asking me why we haven't started school yet. My kids are all real good readers and do well at math, history, english, science, and......have absolutely no trouble socializing with ALL ages of people they encounter..........dispite popular belief that homeschooled children lack social skills. We are getting started with school this week and of course all the books are REVIEWING what they taught last year....the stuff my kids seem to always remember and are bored with. So, where is the problem??? Ok, enough ranting about people that need to mind their own business!
My husband and I are helping with a ministry class at church that has added 2 evenings a week to our schedule and another 2 evenings a week with a class schedule change. I know it will all work out as we get used to the new schedule but, right now it is hectic, to say the least.
I have been stressing about finances again and that is getting me down.
Not having any time to myself to blog or read blogs.....and this is where my only support is for losing weight! which brings me to another stresser......I need encouragement! I have not been on here enough to blog and give out encouragment so I'm feeling a bit lonely in the "losing weight world". I have chose not to tell people in my family and my friends that I am losing weight because of the frustration it has caused in the past but, now I am feeling a bit regretful on that part right now because I really want some compliments by now. Only ONE person out of all the people that I see each week has said anything about me losing weight and looking good. Ok, I brought this on myself by not letting anyone know and now I have to deal with it.

Hope you are all doing better than me this week.
My goal is to try to get on here at least one more time this week to give out some encouragment to someone!!