Shock of the day...

Today was my son's birthday and we took him into town to get some ice cream. I didn't get one but I did have a few bites. We went shopping and then decided to go out to eat for a birthday dinner. The reason I am sharing this with you is that I had a shocker today! We went for Mexican food and when we got there they seated us at one of those dreadful circular booths that everyone has to scoot around in it to sit. Ok...I'll be last and sit on the edge. Well, everyone had a different idea than I had and of course wanted me to sit in the middle. Oh no....I can't do this....I do not want to squeeze into that booth and be so uncomfortable that I can not breath. Shock, shock....I fit...and I was able to scoot around the table with room to spare...about 2 inches even!! Well, that was my shock of the day. I didn't order healthy though. I ordered sour cream chicken enchiladas....I did only eat half of it.

Weigh-in Day...feeling tired, grumpy, and puffy!

I weighed in on thursday and gained .5 of a pound. Not feeling too good about it but, I did eat healthy this week. I haven't been drinking water like I should. I am feeling really tired, everyone in my family has been sick. I'm also a bit grumpy and puffy.....not a good combination. Christmas is coming so fast and I am not prepared at all. Oh well, I'll get everything done and all will turn out good I'm sure....it always does.

Bad habits gone forever....

I started thinking about the "bad sour cream habit" that I no longer have and it lead me to thinking other habits that I have given up this year. Mayo is one of them and butter on toast. I rarely even eat toast any more. When I was in highschool I used to love to come home and make 2-4 pieces of white bread toast slathered in butter......mmmmm it was so good and it really smoothed over all the problems that I had a school that day and I felt so much better (I thought anyway). What I didn't realize was that that good tasting toast was really making things worse for me at school by making me gain even more weight. I still like toast but it is not my comforter and usually If I'm even going to have a piece it will be whole grain and very little or no butter. I do eat whole grain bagels a few times a week. Back to another bad habit dropped.....creamy salad dressings like bleu cheese or ranch dripping all over a wonderful salad. Cheese....cheese on everything at every meal. My whole family used to eat so much cheese we would buy 20 pounds every month. I cut everyone back. Now it is a treat rather than a staple.

These are just a few of the bad habits that I no longer have this year. If I had more time I could think of a few more....Oh another one....a big one...if you read my blog in the beginning the chips were always calling me and jumping in my mouth when I least expected it well, no more of that! I am in charge of those chips now!!

Please tell me about some of your bad habits that you have changed and the ones that are still hanging around. I challenge you to write about it in your blog and link back to mine to get the word around. Please leave me a comment letting me know if you did it so I can go read it.
Have a GREAT day! Hope to hear from everyone.

*OH...I can't believe I forgot about the chips and cream cheese. I did the same thing as Cara only it was nacho cheese Doritos (or any chips if I didn't have those....especially jalapeno chips) and cream cheese. I started it in high school and it was my favorite snack food every time we went on vacation or had a special thing to celebrate or just when I wanted to celebrate! I did have some this summer with mango salsa over the cream cheese....that counts as a little healthy doesn't it?? :) I haven't done that in so long that I forgot about it.

Weigh-in Day...

I lost .5 pound this week. I thought I was going to lose more but I'll still be happy with .5. I am so close to getting that 30 pounds lost badge....I just want to get there so bad.
I had a great week. I am up and moving a lot lately. I have been eating healthy. I have not been drinking as much water....maybe thats the problem. ??
I have to share with you something that has NEVER EVER happened before in my house. I went to get out the sour cream for dinner last night and it was bad! Spoiled sour cream......growing mold.....I have never in my life ever seen such a thing! I am so amazed at this because I used to eat so much sour cream on everything that it NEVER had a chance to go bad!!! I always used it so fast that it couldn't even think of going bad. I threw it out and didn't even miss it!! I am so happy about that! One bad habit gone in the trash!
I have a lot to do today and better get going on it.
Have a great day!

uuugghhh!...

My sister got married last night. I have mixed feelings about it. I want her to be happy but I've seen her be miserable with him for the last 5 years. God can do miracles though.....I do believe that. I had a few comments from some people there last night. The good one first...."You sure are looking good!". But the one that bothered me was the....."So now that you are getting skinny you can wear something pretty". Not sure how to take that one. My husband and my friend both say it's just jealousy talking. This is one of the reasons I didn't want to tell people that I am trying to get healthy, I have a hard time with the rude comments. It wouldn't be so bad if it were just strangers that I didn't know and didn't have to see again but......it's my family. Then they start making judgment on what I should and shouldn't eat at every family gathering. I have found myself overeating or eating the wrong things just so I won't get any comments from them....I try to make it look like I am still eating unhealthy just so they won't feel guilty about what they eat and take it out on me. Is this CRAZY or what? And I'm the one who always stands up for myself in most other situations....especially with my family. uuugghhhh!
The dress I wore was cute. It was dark blue and short....well, to my knees, I usually wear dresses that are pretty long so this was different for me. It felt fun on and I did feel good in it. But after I saw some pictures of me in it I felt terrible. I said " am never wearing that dress again". It is sleeveless but I wore a t-shirt under it kinda like a jumper hoping to somewhat cover my arms. Well, I should have wore a sweatshirt under it......my arms looked so huge.....I'm embarrassed now. I cropped my arm out of the photo. So here I am .....armless! lol

I got the final results of my test and had a few excellents on it and mostly goods! I was a bit shocked considering the person that was scoring me. She was a very small young skinny girl and I felt really intimidated. I had the best testing partner though!

Great test...

My test went GREAT! It was the most challenging one yet! I did it and I think I did well! I will get official results on Monday. I felt so good afterwards.
Yesterday we went hiking up in the woods to get a Christmas tree. It was so much fun. And I didn't get out of breath as much as I have in the past.....I have always loved going hiking though, tromping around in the woods. No snow this year, the kids were a bit bummed. The sunshine was beautiful! I'm kinda glad there was no snow. The kids always talk me into getting on a snowboard or something and I just know I'm going to break my neck! They love it and think it is the best thing to watch mom try to do what they are doing.
Well, my sister is getting married tonight so lots to do today.
I'm working on a plan of healthy eating for the entire day, won't get in any exercise today I don't think. I'll just be busy!
Have a great day!

Busy week...

I had a good week. I've been real busy again this week and not much time to post. I stayed the same on the scale this week. I am glad not to have a gain. I didn't really over eat on Thanksgiving Day but I had a hard time with left overs and then we had a banquet on Sunday to go to and TOM is here all in one week. So I'm really happy I didn't gain.
I have a test tonight and I am not feeling up to it. I hope I feel better after a shower and getting ready to go, maybe a cup of coffee. I know that I can only do my best and that will have to do.....I just get so worried about it.
I am working on getting more activity and drinking my water this week. I am one pound away from getting a new HYC badge and I really want to make that goal. I wanted to get to 30 pounds lost by today but, did not happen. It's ok.....I'll do it but, just not by today obviously.
Hope everyone is having a good week......if anyone even still reads anything here.......I barley have the time to post anymore. There are so many good blogs out there.

Weigh-in Day...

Hello everyone......hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving Day! I weighed in this morning and had a 2 pound loss!!! I was so shocked and excited. A couple of moths ago I figured out that my weigh in day fell on all the major holidays this winter......Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. I decided that was a good thing so I could weigh in and then not have to worry about what I ate the rest of the day because I had a whole week to work it off. Well.....I weighed in this morning and was so excited that I had finally lost 2 pounds that I really didn't want to eat much today after working so hard to loose that 2 pounds!!!
I had a great Thanksgiving. I ate things that I wouldn't eat on an everyday basis but I did not stuff myself. I made the best turkey that I have made in about 20 years! It was so moist! I had a small piece of a doughnut at breakfast just to see if I still liked them....it gave me a headache. I think it was that anyway. The hardest thing to resist today for me was the bleu cheese dip and the artichoke dip with wheat thins. I did not over do though...I feel good about today and I even got in about 20 minutes of exercise, not a lot but some anyway!!
Now we'll se how I can handle all the left overs calling me!!

Weigh-in Day...

Today it's official....I gained .5 lbs. Well, it's better than it was yesterday anyway. I am not too upset, although it is a bit disappointing whenever I have a gain of any amount. I have had a great week and plan to continue to make healthy choices! For breakfast I had a muffin, mango juice and coffee. For lunch I had green beans and a roll with marinara sauce over it....oh and then I had 1/2 c. nonfat cottage cheese. (these are on salad plates)




I am going to my friends house tonight to visit and I always have a hard time resisting all the good food she has so I'm trying to prepare myself for that......not knowing what she will have.

Feeling the energy!

I had a really good day so far. I ate a good breakfast....1/2 raisin bagel w/ 1T peanut butter, 1/2 an orange and coffee. I don't like to eat too much before I go to class, it will come back up if I do. =P
I did a 2 hour class today.... I worked hard! We have another test in 2 weeks to move up to a new level and I want to be sure I am ready to show what I can do. I had a great partner today and really felt confident. I ate the rest of my orange and another one when I got out of class. I had a good lunch when I got home too. Salad with raspberry dressing, 1/2 c. nonfat cottage cheese, multi grain cracker.

I have been feeling better lately, more energy.( I hope it's not just the cup of coffee that I have in the morning) I really think it is the vitamin boosts that I am taking. I took my first vitamin D last Friday and felt like I had drank a couple of energy drinks. My teenage boys challenged me to about 12 rounds of Dance Dance Revolution. I cleared everyone of them and the songs were the boys' choices.....so I wouldn't pick slow ones they said. I did get worse and worse as I went on though.Here is a video so you can see what Dance Dance Revolution is if you haven't heard of it.

I felt so good that on Saturday I stacked 2.5 cords of wood by myself!!!

My husband and boys split and hauled it and I stacked. I am feel much more like myself, capable of doing things and not just wanting to take a nap all day. I hope it stays this way. Sunday, hormones kicked in and I took it easy for the day, except for church.

Monday I went to class and did 1 hour. I would have done 2 but I had errands to run. In the process of running errands I had to go to the courthouse for records and I had to park 2.5 blocks away.......ok.......so I can get in a few more minutes of exercise, right? Well, I walked over there and they tell me they don't handle records there anymore but I can walk another 2.5 blocks and got to another building and they have vital records there. OK....I'm up for it, so the guy tells me go down 2 flights of stairs to the underground tunnel to get across the street and then back up 2 flights of stairs then down 2 blocks to the building. I'm energized and ready to go!!! I get there and I have to go up to the second floor......well by this time I am getting a bit tired so I take the elevator. Get out and walk to the other end of the building and find the office. Guess what......they don't give out records anymore, you have to send away for them. Well, not all is lost I did get in a great walk for the day on top of my 1 hour class. The walk back to my car was rather quickly paced because I had only put enough money in the meter for 40 minutes. So I walk back to my car that is now about 5 blocks away hoping I didn't have a ticket......because I know that must have taken me forever to walk that much. I get there and It only took me 30 minutes to do all that walking. Wow, last year it would have taken me an hour I bet! And now I get to leave the next person 10 minutes on the meter. Three of my kids were with me all this time too....they had a blast. This was a good day. I was really tired at night though. And my foot hurt and I got a nice big blister on the back of my ankle.....no socks! ( I wasn't planning on hiking all over town!)

Well, the scale is up about 6 pounds today....not sure why, it could be the new medication they said would make me gain weight or it could be water. I'm trying not to worry about it and just keep on doing the things that I know are healthy for me! My weigh-in is tomorrow so we'll see by then what it says. For the most part things are going good for me.
I wish you all a great week!

Weigh-in Day...

I lost .5 lb this week. Not a great week but every little bit counts I guess.

I have been worried about my health and not too focused on my eating the last few days. My blood work showed that I'm anemic and vitamin D deficient. Both of these things can make you feel tired all the time and Vit. D deficiency can give you aches and pains...I thought it was just "normal" mom feelings. I have pain that moves all around my body in different joints. So, tomorrow I will start the mega doses of vitamin D. 50,000 iu of vitamin D once a week for 8 weeks. I'm not sure about taking it but, we'll see how it works. They told me to expect weight gain with it too so, I'm a bit unsure about taking it for that reason too. I'm having a hard enough time losing.....I don't need anything to make me gain!!! I started the iron earlier this week and not problems so far with that, I'm not sure how long it will take to build it up though.

I did not do class this week. I started class on Monday but then got hit in the chest and walked off the floor. I just couldn't think and wasn't having a great day anyway so when I got hit in the breast I just gave up on it. Then I have had a migraine for the last 3 days and did not do class on Wednesday either. I did exercise to night for about 30-45 minutes and it felt good! I'm hoping next week will be better for doing class and getting in my exercise. I really need to work on this.

Weigh-in Day...

I stayed the same this week. I don't think it was because I ate a couple pieces of chocolate yesterday though. :)
It's just how it's been going for me lately.....lose a pound, stay the same. I'm still working at it and trying to make healthy choices even though the weight loss is slow.

I took DC's challenge this week. I tried on some clothes that I did not think I would fit into and guess what...they fit!!! Wow I started in a size tight 24/comfortable 26 and the pants I got yesterday were: 2 pairs size 20. I have gotten so used to my loose jeans that almost fall off me and I have to tighten my belt all the way up and fold the waist band down just to keep them up, that it felt really weird to wear a pair that actually fit again. I kept telling my husband "I don't think they will fit but I will try them....I even took a pair of 22's into the dressing room with me just to show him that they were the ones that were going to fit. I was wrong!!! the 20's fit the best so we got them. My friend gave me some 18's and they fit about the same. I really was in shock! I think I might get up the nerve to take a picture.
Thanks DC for the challenge, it was fun!!

Help...

Help.....the candy is calling me. I really want some chocolate!! I'm starting to munch on things.....I better go get a piece of chocolate and get it over with before I eat other things to try to curb the chocolate craving. Hey who was it that said magnesium is what you need when you crave chocolate. Maybe I should have a glass of Calm. Too late....ok the guilt.....I just ate some candy! I thought I wanted it but you guys are right it just doesn't satisfy the way it used to. ugg...my stomach. Now I'm tired. Ok, bad choice.....

Any good tips?...

I hurt my heal in class today. I felt something pop under my heal and then I could not put any weight on it. It is killing me right now. I'm hobbling around and barely able to walk. I can't wait to get home and put it up with a heating pad.
The doctor diagnosed me with Plantar Fasciitis a couple of weeks ago and I have been really working hard on stretching it and wearing good shoes, even in the house and it was starting to feel better. Then today I stepped to the side and I felt a pop and I could not stand on it. I'm so disappointed to not be able to finish class today......and to be hurt again!
My kids wanted to go to Taco Bell today after class and so I gave in. Normally we take our lunch into town with us when we go. So, I wanted to share with you what I ordered: My favorite thing to go out to eat at Taco Bell. I order a taco or a spicy chicken soft taco and 2 sides of lettuce on a tray then I mix it all together and make a really good salad for 170 calories and $1.50, oh and don't forget to put on taco sauce for dressing, zero calories and price for the sauce!! I always feel good about eating that and if I'm still hungry I can get a second taco and still be in a reasonable calorie intake.
Does anyone have a healthy food tip for going out to eat? please share.

Weigh-in Day...

Yay...I lost 2 pounds this week.......that's a big loss for me! I was so happy when I weighed this morning.

My friend took me to see Mama Mia tonight and out to dinner. The movie was cute. I didn't do too good with food choices though at the restaurant. I rarely go out to eat and I was not prepared. Next time. I had a lot of fun tonight and I'm not going to dwell on what I ate....tomorrow is a new day for good choices!

Hope everyone is doing good this week....wishing you all sunny days! :)

"Space"...

Today was another good day. It's still Wednesday to me....I am just posting late! We had a hard work out in class today for an hour. I drank my water. I planned out what I was going to eat for lunch and took it in town with me for the day. I even took the kids for ice cream and didn't get one for myself, I did have a few bites though....I'm not that disciplined.
Then I came home...........I was very tired by the end of the day and getting grouchy! I had an hour and a half to take care of things at home, make dinner and get everyone ready to go back in town for youth group meetings. I made pizza and had a big piece, then I ate 1/2 of a small piece. That was ok because I had not eaten much for the total of the day......then hubby and I went to Starbucks while the kids were in classes. I got a tall white mocha, nonfat, no whip. Ok.....I still think Its a good day, I'm probably a bit over on my calories but it's ok.
Then we went to pick up the middle son........they had a pizza party and they were handing out pizza to everyone who came to the door so they could get rid of it......I got caught up in the moment and took one small cheese piece.......Ok now I know I'm over my limit.....how could I have done this tonight after such a great day..... the night before weigh-in!!!!! Hormones, I'm out of control when those hormones sneek up on me. I know excuses, excuses........but I really need to practice self control when my mood get down and I get tired...and especially when someone is waving pizza in my face at 9:00pm . :)
Oh, I almost forgot....I have something odd to share with you. I was typing yesterday and looked down at my fingers and noticed something.....I could see space between my finger and the ring I am wearing......never before has there been "space" between my finger and my ring.....usually just the opposite. I had to take a picture to try to show you all...so you would believe me. :) Look hard and you will see it. :)

resisted temptation...

We had our usual ministry class tonight that my husband and I help with and if that is not bad enough to resist all the food that people bring to share at break time, we also had a leadership meeting going on at the same time in another room. So we had to go back and forth and there was food in both rooms! The meeting had a fluffy desert with whipped cream on top! I didn't even go near the table and I didn't feel the pull to go either. Back in our class at break time I had a little bit to eat but was very choosey about it (I did have one of those really little creampuffs from Costco though....they just fit right in your mouth). I really felt good about not just diving in like I might have done in the past.
Tomorrow will be a good day...I'm starting to plan and think about what I will take to eat.

inspirations......all of you

Things are good with me.....I thought. I have been making pretty good food choices (not today though...I ate a creamcheese danish with my coffee this morning...not a healthy choice). I have been trying to get some activity in too. But, my foot has been hurting/numb feeling for a couple of weeks now and it makes it a bit difficult to be very active. I went to the dr. last week to get my foot checked out and they said they don't know what is wrong with my foot but, I am anemic and I have vit. D deficiency. So they want me to take prescriptions to get these to a healthy level. And I still have to go in for further blood testing on the anemia to see why and where it is coming from. I am wondering about the vit. D deficiency and why I have that. Wow, I had no idea. I just went in to see why the bottom of my foot is numb. It makes me a bit nervous to take prescriptions so I'm going to try to look into it further. Any ideas on the situation would be appreciated.
Yesterday was a great day. I made good food choices and went to class for an hour. They had me doing a jump thing that was not working with my foot problem so I had to ask for an alternate move.....not uncommon for me though as I have has so many injuries that I often have to ask for a different move to make it easier on my joints.
I have read some very inspiring blogs today and I do have to say you all are the ones who help me get through each and every day of this journey....the ups and the downs that we all struggle with. You are my inspiration! Keep up the good work and never ever give up! You are all doing so great.
And I can't say it enough......I love all the progress pictures!! If you don't have some kind of picture of yourself showing your progress, even if it is a body only shot, you really should consider it, you never know how that might inspire someone!

Weigh-in Day...a day late

Yes, I weighed in yesterday. I stayed the same (again). This is frustrating. I am not happy about the amount of staying the same that I'm doing. I really want to see more losses, even if they are small. I know I need to get on top of things and boost my exercise. I also have not been eating as much as I was when I first started. I get in to a panic and think I need to quit eating to lose this weight....but in reality I didn't start losing till I started eating more often. I have been happy with the choices in foods that I have been making and the way I think about food is better now than in the past (most of the time). Sometimes I still fall back into the comfort eating, but not nearly as much any more. I also really like walking across the parking lot and don't mind taking the stairs when I go places now. I have more energy most of the time (even though I found out that I anemic this week). I just need to really focus on my intake amount verses my energy output.
Ok, I need to talk about this again.....When I joined the Christmas challenge I really only wanted to put 11 pounds down as my challenge (to make a total loss for the year 35 pounds) but I felt pressure to make it higher because I saw what everyone else posted.... 30, 40 pounds or more I felt like mine was so small. I need to be good to myself and not feel the pressure. If I make the goal of 15 pounds lost it will be a miracle. I am not not going to let that challenge get to me any more....I am going to ignore it and just post my updates as if it was just a check-in during the week. :)
I need to not worry about the out come and whether or not I make the goal....I am not a failure if I don't make that goal.

So, that being said and off my mind....whew......... it has been weighing hard on me......I hope you are all doing well on your Christmas Challenge and I will be checking in still.

I'm thinking of taking a new picture for progress pics now that I have lost 25 pounds.??? not really feeling motivated about it though. I love progress pics of others though and they really motivate me!!

What motivates you? please let me know and if you have progress pics please share (or know of some good ones to look at).
Lets keep our chin up and hang in there.....we can do it!

Today is a new day.....a new hour......a new minute......no better time to start making good choices, you are worth it, everyday , every minute!

Weigh-in Day...

I lost 1 pound this week. The scale went up then back down this week and I ended up losing 1 pound overall. It is a great little one pound!! That one little pound added up with all the other little one pounds and now totals up to 25 lost for me so far. I am so excited to be able to update my HYC badge to a 25 pounds gone badge and check off another goal. Even though I am losing quite slowly it is more than I have lost in years....I'm glad to going on the down side and and not gaining. Sometimes I get so discouraged about losing slowly and want to see a bigger loss but, in the long run I know that I will be more likely to keep it off if I lose slowly.
I did not set out to meet a goal within a certain amount of time....I just wanted to start living a more healthy life by making healthy food choices and exercising and drinking more water. Over all so far has been pretty good with some ups and downs. You all are my inspiration and help me to keep going. I love reading your blogs and looking at your progress pictures. Your comments make my day!! Thank you to all of you!

Now I have joined Chubby Chic's Christmas challenge and feel the pressure. I think I will have to just put it out of my mind so I won't freak out when I think "I'm never going to make it, I'm never going to make it". At first I wanted to put 11 pounds for my challenge amount but then I though if I upped it a bit to 15 pounds it might "make" me work harder. Who was I kidding...I know I don't do good under pressure. I think I better just not worry about it and do the best that I can.

Hanging in there....

I did weigh-in on thursday of last week, just didn't get a chance to post. I stayed the same. I was kinda bummed because I was working so hard last week but, I know things will even out soon. I did well most of the week but I did have a few times I just didn't watch what I ate. I am retaining so much water right now that my foot is numb and tingling since Saturday. The scale jumped up 5 pounds overnight. I'm sure glad I don't record my weight everyday!!! It could drive a person to overeating. Ok...bad joke. It does get me crazy with how my body fluctuates though. And I've been thinking I may need to re-evaluate what works for me cause I'm slowing down on the losses. I've lost 24 pounds.....is that enough to hit a plateau? Maybe I need to change things around. I did double classes again on Monday, 2 hours.

Wonderful Wednesday.....

Well, another great day!  I am tired though tonight.  I did class today and even though my mind was not really there, my body was.  I could not remember how to do anything right!  I kept having to ask questions but, I finally made it through.  So that counts as 1 hour exercise today....yay I did it!

I tried some clothes on today at the store and was able to wear a couple of sizes smaller than the last time I was there.  I was a bit surprised.....I know that my clothes are getting baggy and I always have to wear my belt now but, I don't really know what size I am.  I had fun trying things on!

I felt really good about the food choices I made today too.  I probably could have drank a bit more water though.

Weigh-in tomorrow, cross my fingers. xxxx

Pirate's Booty info....

First things first.....For all of you out there who were wondering what in the world is "Pirate's Booty"......here you go=Pirate's Booty is a great tasting snack made from rice and corn similar to a cheese puff but with puffed rice in it like a ricecake that melts in your mouth combination but, lighter and no orange finger tips.  It is all natural, and I think it is a great alternative to chips when you are wanting something crunchy and salty.  I usually eat 1/2 of a serving at a time and that is only 65 calories.  It is so light and the size of popcorn you get a lot in a serving.  I discovered this when my kids wanted some to go camping and they said it was like stale popcorn so I said why do you like it then??  They said it is the white cheddar flavor they liked.  They had it at friends house a couple of months ago.  So...I tried it and instantly I thought of cheese puffs only better.  Once they thought of it as a cheese puff, instead of stale popcorn, they liked it even better!

I had a good day today too.  I didn't exercise today though.  I made healthy food choices.  I have to admit I am feeling a bit of pressure since I joined the Christmas challenge....I'm already thinking I'm never going to make it.  I am so hard on myself when I set a challenge, I usually end up failing !

Well, I better head over and check- in on the HYC, it is more my style of a challenge.....no time limit.  

Hoping every one is doing GREAT~Thanks to all of you who stopped by to leave me a nice comment. 

Praying for sunny days for you all.

Marvelous Monday....

Today was such a great day!

When I got up this morning I didn't think it was going to be a good day at all!!  I didn't get much sleep and  I really thought I was going to have a bad day.  I remembered to not rely on my feelings and just pray.  God is faithful and I had a wonderful day.  Good healthy eating choices, and did 2 classes today so I got a lot of exercise.  I did the 10:am class then my friend came in and didn't have anyone to work with so I stayed for the second class.  I did pretty good....I did get tired out a bit and about 45 minutes into the second class I was getting hungry!!  I didn't over eat though!!  I drank some water first and it helped then ate my nectarine and then my 1/2 of sandwich and celery.  I did have 1/2 an ounce of Pirate's Booty from Costco too....that stuff is sooooo good!

So I finally got up the nerve to join the Christmas Challenge......oh, the pressure is on!  We'll see how that goes.  :)

Weigh-in Day...

Today was weigh-in day and I lost another 1/2 pound.  Slow losing but, I'm ok with that.  Not extremely happy but at least I'm not gaining!! and that is a good thing!!!  I am at 24 pounds gone right now.  I am hoping to get to 25 pounds gone by next week.....then I can get a new badge!!  That will be exciting and I can mark off another goal.....wow,  I can do it.

This week I will focus more on my water intake and step up my exercise since I've been slacking on it ever since my first surgery in the summer and then another and two injuries.....but, I can get back to it and build back up.

I've been thinking a lot about the Christmas challenge that a lot of you are doing out there and at first I didn't really want to put the pressure on myself to do that in fear that I will fail.  I think I have changed my mind.  I have decide I can do it and I don't have to put a huge amount to lose, I can make it reasonable for me to succeed.  So, I'm going to try to find it again and join it if I still can...if not I might just do my own little Christmas challenge.  Hope I can find it...bye.

Hope everyone is doing good and I'm trying to make more me time to get on here more often and check in with everyone. 

 

Healthy You Challenge....

I am not able to get to the HYC check-in page, or any of Scale junkies pages. It keep coming up to the Google search page. Why is that happening?? anyone know???

Anyway....I'm feeling bloated and have heartburn tonight. And I'm sore from class on Monday. :) Worked the "gluteus" too hard... I guess that's what's called working your butt off. Oh well.....back to class tomorrow to work hard!

Hope everyone is doing good and I will try to check in tomorrow. :)

Ok....new update. I was finally able to get on there and check in. Sorry for the confusion. I almost panicked there for a minute or two. :)

Weaknesses....

I weighed in yesterday and stayed the same. I have not been working hard to lose but, I have been still trying to make good choices.
We went camping again last week because my husband wanted to go one more time before the rain hits. I had a hard time with my ankle hurting. One day I was in tears because I couldn't go on a hike with everyone. My husband takes the kids on this really long 2 hour hike up the dunes every year and I have never been with them in 15 years. I have been so out of shape that I never felt like I could do it and didn't want to be embarrassed about it. This year I wanted to give it a try since I had ost a bit of weight and was feeling stronger, but I had hurt my ankle twice this summer and I didn't know how that was going to work. I wanted to go so bad with my family. I tried to go up the trail just to get to the hiking trail and I was out of breath and my ankle hurt so bad. This really made me feel ashamed that I couldn't even get up the trail to the hiking trail. So, I went back down crying and I did some walking on flat ground while they went up and down mountains. Mostly I have been trying to get healthy. I have had 2 injuries to my ankle, a minor surgery on the bridge of my nose with 4 stitches, and a cold.
I have learned a lot about some of my weaknesses over the last couple of weeks.
1. Being hurt is one of my weaknesses. When I am hurt I have a hard time eating healthy. Part of the reason is that it is not easy having someone else get your food if you cannot get up and move around. I have a hard time dictating to someone what I want to eat and how to prepare it. Even if you ask for a piece of toast you can't forget to tell them "No butter, please". When my husband cooks he loves to use a ton of oil (even though it is olive oil) and butter and cheese. I really don't want to dictate to him how to cook since he is doing it willingly in the first place. And the kids just don't get it when you ask them to make something a certain way.
2. Being sick is one of my weaknesses. This one for sure is comfort eating, and a bit of the same thing from being hurt.
3. Not enough sleep. I'm grouchy and don't really care what I eat. I do comfort eat for this reason too, hoping to feel better.
4. Being out of my usual setting, like camping or on vacation. This one is hard because I am not thinking about myself as much and usually just want to get everyone fed. Or a big one is having a treat because you are on vacation. I need to think of it as a vacation away from my usual stresses but, not away from healthy eating choices.
5. Stress is one of my weaknesses. As you might imagine I comfort eat when I feel stress. Some how I think it is going to make everything get better.
These are just a few of my overall weaknesses that I have been thinking about lately. I think all of them include some form of comfort eating. This something I need to work on. I need to find an alternative to food for comfort. ???? Maybe a cup of tea?

What are your weaknesses??? and please share with me what things you turn to for comfort

Weigh-in Day...

I'm still here. I've been real busy in the last couple of weeks. So I weighed in last week and had a 1 pound loss. This week I lost 1/2 pound. I did not stay on track too well this week with all that I have been doing, but I have still been trying to make healthy choices. I have not been exercising again....I hurt my ankle, in a different place this time, on Saturday at my test. I pulled a muscle in my calf. I am now walking on crutches. I did great at my test and passed with really good scores.
My family and I helped set up a huge "VeggieTales Live" show on Monday. It was so much fun to see how it all works and to get to be a part of it. I sold merchandise and took tickets.
On Tuesday I had surgery on my face. I had a cyst growing on the bridge of my nose.....it grew quickly over the last 2 months. The doctor cut it out and gave me 4 stitches across my nose. My nose is swollen and my eyes. It hurts too! So no class for me and no activities. :(
Everyday is getting better, and better, and better! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!
Wishing sunny days to you all!

Back from camping...

We are back from camping now. I had a great time camping. We did lots of walking everyday on the trails and roads in the campground. I did eat more food than I had planned but, still tried to make good choices most of the time. The kids on the other hand were out of control on their eating. They were hungry 24 hrs. a day! I would just get done fixing a meal and they would want something more! It was hard to keep up with them.
Yesterday was very busy for me running around town and getting back to normal mondays. I was a bit emotional and tired too and ate too much last night as a result. I'm emotional today too but so far not eating bad...mainly just grouchy!!! I have a lot of things piling up on me right now and it feels like a wave crashing down on me. I need to get organized and move on but I'm having a hard time prioritizing things. It makes my brain hurt.
Sunday night we rushed back into town just in the nick of time to help start the Restoration class at our church that my husband and I help out with. We have to be there tonight too. It is 2 nights a week for 12 weeks, intense but good material. I also have a test coming up on Saturday and am very nervous about it. My ankle is still in pain and this will make it hard to perform what I will need to do to pass. I also need to get the kids back to school soon here....and I haven't even ordered books this year! I've never been this disorganized. Well, thanks for listening to me complain about life. Things will get better, I know.
Praying for sunny days!!!

Hope everyone is doing good this week and I hope to be able to get on here a bit more this fall.....now that summer is over.

Early weigh-in this week...

So I decided to do an early weigh-in this week because we are going camping and I'm afraid that if I wait I might not get to post a loss when I get back.
I lost 4 pounds this week. I can only really claim 1 of those as a true loss, the other 3 are from the gain last week.
In any case I do feel good and I'm happy that I had a loss.
I'm planning on being healthy when I go camping this week.....I'll check back in when we get back.

I hope you are all doing well this week.....smile and stay positive.....everyday is a new day!

Wishing everyone sunny days!!

Sunny days mostly this week...

I think I did really good this week with food choices.....a few not so good but mostly good. I did not get to exercise though because of my ankle injury....I think it's getting better. I hope the scale shows the same.

It is so strange to have to eat to lose weight! the more I eat the more I lose....healthy things that is. I spent my whole life being told to not eat so much and to quit eating that I had gotten into starvation mode and my body does not want to let go of the extra pounds. Now I find out that it is not how much I was eating mostly but, the wrong things and not often enough for my body to use up what I did eat, I was storing it for a rainy day I guess. Well, I've had enough rainy days in my life and am not storing up any more pounds. I'm praying for sunny days!! It is so different to try to eat like this but it feels good! Now I am actually hungry more than once a day and not having to eat a huge meal to feel full. It's more like nibbling all day and I was told NOT to do that my whole life.
A new way of eating for me! Sunny days ahead!

Hey, I am going camping this week and I'm a bit nervous because in the past it has been an excuse to eat junk food and not watch what I eat at all......eat like the kids! SMORES and hot chocolate. I have packed some healthy things and some treats too. I am just praying for self control, to be good to myself and not stuff myself just because I'm sitting there with nothing else to do. I'm hoping to do some walking. The kids and hubby are planning a big hike and I don't think I should do it because of my ankle, it needs to get better before the 13th. I think I'll walk the dog when they are doing their hike. Oh, and remember to drink my water!!

I think I will do an early weigh-in tomorrow before I go.

It's a new Day...

OMG'sh I can't believe it....my scales are up another 3 pounds this morning!!!! That's 6 pounds!! What's up with that? I'm so glad I DO NOT have to record another 3 pound gain again today. My first thought was I need a new scale.....but then I just said... I'll just work hard this week...I'll be industrious about eating healthy, then see what the scales says next week on the official weigh-in day.

Today truely was a new day!! I made healthy choices all day today and really felt good about it. I got back to eating more often and I did not skip a meal today. I drank my water today too. I did not exercise today. My ankle has been really hurting and I'm trying to give it a rest so I can get back to my class on the 3rd. After that only 10 days to the big class event for this term. Will I be ready??? we'll see!

Thanks to those of you that stopped by and left me some encouraging words....it really helps to read something nice from someone out there who is struggling with the same things in life and has been there, they really understand how you feel. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this world of temptation.
Thanks again......you guys are my inspiration!!

Weigh-in Day...

I am so unhappy..... :(
I gained 3 lbs. this week! so I ate chips and dip.....how stupid was that?
I was so happy about getting to 20lbs. lost that I got a bit too relaxed with my eating habits.
I have not been on plan this last week. I was not recording what I ate and I have not been exercising. I also have not been drinking water. I have been skipping meals too. wow I can really see why I gained 3 lbs.

Ok...back to plan...tomorrow is a new day and I will not let this get me down (I did for a short time today and ate chips and dip, oh and cookies with coffee) but it didn't make me feel better...it made me feel worse in fact, I'm retaining so much water too.

I am not going to give back my bling yet though....I will try to get back to the 20lbs. lost first. if I don't do it in 2 weeks, I will take it off.

Weigh-in Day...

Wow, it's weigh-in day again already. The week flew by! I lost another pound this week.
Sometimes I wish I would lose more each week but then I remember that slow is better in the long run. I've done fast before and it works for a short time then I gain it all back plus more. I have been really happy that I have lost 20 pounds (21 now) but I get so discouraged when I think about how much I still weigh or look in the mirror and see that I have so much more to go....I have to press on....I will keep going....it just gets me down sometimes.

This month in my class we are talking about industriousness: industrious- diligent and hard working.
Industriousness? in plain language it means, you have to work- and work hard. There is no substitute for work, none. Worthwhile things come only from real work. It is essential to success and only you know if you are really doing it -
giving it everything you've got!

You can work without being industrious, but you cannot be industrious without work.

I takes work to achieve a goal...any goal. I am wanting to achieve a couple different goals in my life right now, one being weight loss...the other being goals to achieve in my class and the weight loss will help with this. Am I really working to my full extent to achieve this ?? I think I could work harder at it but, I also trying to make it a life change and ease into it by changing bad eating habits so they will stay with me the rest of my life. I definitely could be exercising more often !

I am coming up on another test in my class and can see that I really need to be working on that if I want to score well and achieve this short term goal....which will get me closer to the long term goal. The long term goal is becoming more in sight than I ever thought possible. I can't wait to feel that way about my weight loss goal.

Tell me what are your thoughts about industriousness... are you working hard at achieving your goal? What do you do to work hard? What helps you keep focused on your goal? Could you work harder? What would motivate you to work harder?

Weigh-in Day...

It's actually still Thursday for me, I have not been to bed yet. I have been so busy it is not funny. 0_o But I had to get this posted. I am so excited! I lost 1 lb. this week and that puts me at 20 lbs. lost !!!! one pound at a time!
I am so happy,
I got to get a new "20 lbs. lost badge". and...
I got to put another heart on my "healthy hearts" tracker that I made. and...
I got to check off another goal, actually I checked off two because I felt so good about myself today too. and...
I got to mack that ticker say "20 lbs. lost and 50 to go"
I can't believe I got so excited over this. OK, I will settle down....but I also have to tell you I am pulling clothes out of my closet and my drawer that I haven't wore in years but saved because I loved it ( you know the story). I wore a cute shirt today that has really never fit me from the time I got it, it was always too tight and I was never comfortable in it. Now it fits, and my husband thought I bought a new top......he said it looks realllllly good on me. :)
I have felt so good all day about making it to that 20 lbs. lost goal.

I hope every one is doing good this week and meeting your weekly or daily goals.

HYC check-in......

I love the HYC check-in on Tuesday. I weight in on Thursday and the HYC is like a mid-week reminder. Just to help me stay in check with what my goals are.

I had a better week this week. I'm getting back to some exercise and just feeling better. (Did double classes today.....2 hours) Not sure what the scale will say on weigh-in day (thurs.) but I'm hoping for at least 1 lb. lost so I can get that "20 lbs. lost badge".
Thanks to all of you who encouraged me last week, it really helped.

Good luck to all of you this week, I know you can do it. See ya

Weigh-in Day...

I lost a pound this week! Woo Hoo! I am so happy for that! One more pound and I can get that 20 pounds lost badge. I am starting to feel more recovered and up beat, not in as much pain everyday. Really wanting to get back to activities, I rode my bike for about 20-30 minutes last night, it felt so good to do something (even though the dog chased me and tried to bite my leg).
I'm going to my friends for lunch today, I'm praying for self control, she always has the most wonderful things to eat.
Sorry for a short post again but, I'm off to do a "polar bear" swim with my 8yr. old. The pool temp says 72˚. I'm not sure that 72˚ totally qualifies for "polar bear" swim but it will be chilly! O_o

Thank you to all of you with encouraging words...it really helps!

HYC check in......

I'm still in a bit of a fog and trying to figure out how to be intent on losing weight. I had a couple of down days this week and really felt like there was no point in trying but I got over it. I did do too much comfort eating this week too. Being sick and recovering from physical pain makes me weak to comfort foods. I'm still hanging in there but need a bit of a boost.

Weight-in Day & INTENTNESS cont.....

So today is weigh-in day....I stayed the same this week and I'm not too upset but, more so, it has given me a new strength to look at what I am doing in my life, what makes a difference, and to be content with what life brings my way as long as I know I am still tying to be healthy and not giving up. My life has been out of order the last few weeks but I believe it will be getting back is some sort of order soon. I am trying to take care of myself and get healed up so I can get back with more exercise, I have realized how important exercise is and what a large part it plays in losing weight. I am on light activity for a couple more weeks but will be back on track soon!

As you know I have been posting about INTENTNESS. Here are a few more thoughts about intentness that I want to share with you.

Intentness can mean determination, it can mean persistence, it can mean tenacity or perseverance.
Intentness is the ability to resist temptation and stay on course, to concentrate on your objective with determination and resolve. Impatience is wanting too much too soon. Intentness doesn't involve wanting something. It involves doing something often for a very long time, possibly a lifetime.

The road to real achievement is usually bumpy and long, but you do not give up. You may have setbacks. You may have to start over. You may have to change your methods. You may have to go around, or over, or under on your path. You may have to back up and start again. But you do not quit. You stay the course. To do this....you must have INTENTNESS.

Be persistent. Be determined. Be tenacious. Be completely determined to reach your goal, what every it may be. That's intentness. If you stay intent and your ability warrants it, you will eventually reach the top of the mountain that you are tying to climb.


Thinking about intentness has inspired me and I have wanted to share it with you. I'm not sure where I am with intentness yet.
I feel like I am in a fog right now and searching for the path, fumbling along the way. I do believe I have seen the warning signs out there that lead me of the path but most of the time I choose to ignore them. Somehow thinking I know better, not trusting that the warning is real, only to fall in to a deeper fog and way off the path headed in a different direction. I'm trying to get my fog lights hooked up and running so I can see a little clearer down the path! Being intent on reaching my small goals is helping me see where I want to be even though the path is still foggy.

I hope you are all being intent on reaching your goal....no matter what it is big or small.....let me know where you are in the fog and what you are being intent on. Hope every one is having a great week......and remember.....never give up!
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Can you see beyond the fog.....

Last week I posted a bit about INTENTNESS and I ask.....what are your thoughts on intentness? tell me how you are being intent.. I loved what you had to say about INTENTNESS!!

Felicia said...
What a great post!! Lets see, I am intent on never going back to what I was nor letting life drag me back there. I am intent on always facing forward and not letting the pot holes suck me down. I am intent on being, every day, better then I was the day before. I am intent on being the best me not only for me but to me.

dadivastreet said...
I am intent on following my goal to be healthier. I am intent on identifying the triggers that keep me from obtaining my goal.

Cammy said...
Intentness is huge in trying to become fit. It requires that we remain focused and committed to this one purpose, not ignoring other needs but incorporating them into the fitworld (rather than the other way around.)

Twix said...
Hmmm, intentness. This week I will accomplish the goals I set forth for myself!

Thank you all for your great comments! I was so Inspired by them!! I would love to hear from more of you if you get a chance to leave a comment.

This week I have been thinking about the "fog" in life. The things that come up in life that seem to fog up your goals and make it hard to see the light. As I've said before I have a hard time seeing the ending goal of my weight loss. It seems so far away....I can't even imagine what it will be like because I have never been there. Sometimes I feel as if I can't reach the goal because I can't see it. I'm not sure what it looks like. Or how to get there.
Right now I have been focusing on small goals of losing 5 pounds at a time and that is helping me "see" where I'm going. Five pounds is not so far off in the fog that I can't see it. I can see 5 pounds on the scale and I can feel it in the way my clothes fit. This is so much more attainable to me. It is still hard to get to where I am going and takes focus but I can "see" more clearly to losing 5 pounds. Eventually the small goals will add up to a big goal some day and I will be able to see more clearly where I am going. I had a foggy week this last week not knowing where I was going at all (you can read the post before this one to understand why I say that).

Do you have a clear view of your goal or are you in a fog? If you have a clear view, how did you get there? What are some ways you use to "see" through the fog? Do you set small goals? reward yourself? (I want to give myself rewards but haven't figured out a good system yet) Put your fog lights on and leave me a comment, I love hearing from all of you, let me know where you are in the fog and how you cope with it.

It's been a long week.....

It's been a week since I posted last. I've been through a lot of things in this last week.
First, I will go back to weigh-in day....thursday. I did weigh-in that morning before heading to the hospital. I lost 1 lb. last week. I was pretty happy about that, but just didn't have the energy to get on here and post.

So, when I went in for my yearly exam this year I had a bad mammogram. I skipped last years because I couldn't bring myself to make the appointment....because I had a bad mammogram the year before too. (Don't ask me for the reasoning there....one would think if you had a bad test one year you would want to be on top of things for the next year.) Any way I had to have biopsies 2 years ago and it was not fun. They turned out to be benign and I recovered but it was a tough time for me in my life and I felt so alone, I couldn't bare to go there again. So I finally made the appointment for this year and once again a bad mammogram! This time it was worse...I had to have 14 core biopsies on the other side. I went to the hospital on thursday, this time not alone!! It is still very scary and stressful. It took the doctor 3 times the amount of time that they had planned and that made my husband worry as he sat in the waiting room but, I was glad to go a bit slow so I could have a breather in there. I called the nurse yesterday and she said the "unofficial" results were, they were all benign. I still have to get the official results when my doctor is in though, maybe today or tomorrow?? The heavy cloud lifted from my head after I heard the nurse say they were benign. I felt like doing something...energized...but too sore to jump or dance around. 0_o I wanted to ride my bike too, but my husband wouldn't let me yet. He is taking good care of me this time. But a lot of the time I just think I can do everything myself, I don't want anyone to think I'm a baby. I'm used to being independent and doing things for myself and everyone else it's hard to sit still and have others do things for me. I'm recovering well and will be back to doing everything as usual real soon!

Now that leads me up to the part of eating and being healthy for the last week. I have been real hungry since my biopsies! Mainly craving proteins and not eating enough of them and in turn eating too many carbs because I'm still hungry and I'm grabbing something quick! I really have tried to stay on plan but it has been so hard, my body is so out of it. My sleeping has been off and I couldn't do any exercise. I'm not trying to give excuses for anything, I'm just amazed at how something like this can throw your everyday routine off. I have been physically and emotionally weak! I have been eating ice cream with my husband at night again.....smaller portions....but still not good....this will need to stop!!! Yesterday I was very nervous about waiting for my results and hungry from going in town and doing my class (light activity). When I came home about 3:30pm I had a 1/2 bagel with some chicken on it and a couple of pringles. Then I did the old "that was sooooo good and made me feel soooo much better" that I made the other half of the bagel with chicken on it and ate it too. Then I was stuffed and not hungry for dinner but I ate dinner anyway. I dished up my dinner and then looked at it and put some back. I had mostly green beans a little bit of spaghetti but 2 pieces of bread and cheese all over the spaghetti. This week I could see some old habits creeping back in there like, eating just because it's there and emotional eating! My emotions have been all over the place and I have not had the energy to really focus on my eating habits...I didn't abandon it altogether though...I did try to stay in control of portions and I didn't give into every little opportunity to eat and be out of control even though It would have been real easy to just give up and not think about my food intake at all.

Intentness.....

You will never know what you can achieve unless you try.


Feeling kinda blaaa tonight. Health issues getting me down, in and out of the doctor (I hate going to the doctor). I hope to have a few of them taken care of in the next couple of weeks.....I've never had so many things going on at once.....I'm pretty sure all will turn out good, nothing major....just stressful and annoying!!

I still am working on getting that 20lbs. lost badge from HYC. I really like working towards small goals, mine is every 5 lbs. I saw a video on youtube about a woman that got sponsors to help her lose weight. Some one would pledge to give her inspiration for a certain amount of weight she lost. Sounds interesting......sometimes I feel so alone in this journey.....I know most of it I bring on myself by not wanting to tell the people that I know that I'm trying to be healthy, but that is to protect myself from the people that like to control everything I do. Oh well, I'm grateful for the support on here.

I went back to class today and I really thought it was going to be soooo hard, but it really wasn't! I think I did real good for not being in class for a week. I got 1 hour of exercise in today. I didn't do a double class because I'm trying to take it easy this week. We have themes of the month in class.
*The theme of the month is INTENTNESS.

*intent |inˈtent|
*noun
intention or purpose
1. Something that is intended; an aim or purpose.
2. The state of one's mind at the time one carries out an action.
3. Meaning

*adjective
[ predic. ] ( intent on/upon) resolved or determined to do (something) :
• attentively occupied with :
1. Firmly fixed; concentrated
2. Having the attention applied; engrossed
3. Having the mind and will focused on a specific purpose

*DERIVATIVES
intently- adverb
intentness -noun

Intentness.....what are your thoughts on intentness? tell me how you are being intent.

Stay positive....

When I was at the doctor on Thursday I read this article about how much water our bodies really need. Well, it says it depends on our weight and how many caffeinated and alcoholic drinks you have each day. So this is how it works: First divide your weight in half to get the number of ounces of water your body needs each day. Then add 8 ounces for each caffeinated or alcoholic drink you consume ( because both are diuretics) and another 8 ounces for every 20 minutes of exercise you do. Ok.....I don't know about you but, I have a hard enough time trying to drink 64 ounces of water each day!!! I can't imagine having to drink half my body weight (even in ounces) of water and add on for coffee and exercise (I don't drink alcohol, so no worry there). I'm not saying this is a bad thing....just seems like a lot to me!
So.....next time you go to the mall and see some crazy women cartin' around a 5 gal. bucket with an extra long straw hanging out......that will be me, no time to talk, just wave and smile...... 'cause I'm heading for the nearest bathroom! :)

I am pretty stressed right now and dealing with some hard things……it is so hard not to turn to food for comfort. I had a bad day today and just wanted to come home, lay on the couch and have something to eat, and watch t.v.. Well, I had a orange to eat and got on the computer to read some blogs to get inspired and remember I’m not the only one out there with this problem. We can make healthy choices……and we will!!!

Remember on this weight loss journey we not only have to get our bodies healthy we also have to get our minds healthy with possitive input and stop listening to the negative that we are so accustom too. It too can be a bitter sweet comfort as this is what most of have always known. Now is the time to start changing that part of us too. Try to say something positive about yourself everyday even if it is something small.....you deserve it!

Weigh-in day....

So the official weigh-in says I stayed the same this week. I am a bit disappointed because yesterday it was looking like I was going to lose a pound. I am really trying to get that 20 lbs. lost badge from HYC.
Such is life..... just when you think you have things figured out it changes on you. I'm not giving up......I'm going to do it!!! I did have a short moment of wanting to quit this morning and I made a piece of toast and some cottage cheese after I already ate breakfast. By lunch I had reconsidered and was back on track of making good choices though....it didn't feel good to be stuffed anymore and that toast just didn't comfort me like it used too, it just made me tired and I didn't get anything done this morning. My friend called and that cheered me up.

I can think of some good things I have done this week though.......
I exercised at home on my own, without going to class this week, ( I will start back Monday at class)
I made good food choices most of the time,
I took the stairs at the doctor's office yesterday instead of waiting for the elevator.
I drank my water on most days.

I have been under a lot of stress and not getting much sleep though and I think that has something to do with it. I told myself when I started this blog that it is time to start taking care of me instead of putting everyone else first and I'm not giving up on me....I'm worth it!

Stressed today......

I've had a few challenging days over the weekend. On Friday I went to a fair with my husband. The smells were wonderful....not your typical hot grease and cotton candy smells.......these were fresh corn, artichokes, bean burritos with handmade salsa, curry chicken, stir fry, brown rice, wonderful India seasoned veggies and noodles, samosas, DeFrisco chicken, whole wheat pizza, greek salad, all the great ethnic and organic foods. I was doing really good not wanting to have some of everything. I had decided to have 1/2 plate of noodles with veggies and chicken for lunch then have a wonderful organic fruit salad for a treat. Then I got a migraine and had to lay down on the blanket for a couple of hours. When I woke up I was sooooo hungry, I'm always starving after I have a migraine, so we went and got a Thripthy....that is an India burrito. It has a flat bread, curry chicken, fresh cabbage, tomato, cucumbers, onion, cilantro and some really hot onion and pepper chuttney....it is soooo good. Well after I ate that I was stuffed and never got to have my fruit salad. I still stayed with in my calories for the day ........well mostly.......I guess I better include the Starbucks Frappacinno we got on the way home.

Saturday was spent mostly taking it easy so I didn't have another migraine. I did fix frozen fish sticks for dinner(fast and easy) and didn't feel really good about eating that and clam chowder. For lunch I made the fresh fruit salad I wanted and it was really good and filling I had a spoon of yogurt on it and a sprinkle of granola.

Sunday didn't go real well....I didn't get breakfast ( big mistake) then by lunch time I was really hungry!!!! We were suppose to go to my husbands parents for a BBQ at 1:00pm after church so I assumed it was going to be lunch. I was wrong. They weren't planning on eating till around 4:00pm. If I had known this I would have got lunch after church before I even went all the way there. I told my husband I need to eat, so I took the kids and went and found the nearest Taco bell. The kids ate too much and were stuffed, I ate one bean burrito with lettuce and tomato and 5 chips. Not long after we got back they decided to start cooking.......wouldn't you know it!!! I ate a turkey burger on 1/2 a bun, I like to put lettuce on the top to hold it all together, no mayo. I did have cheese though and about 12 chips.......surprise they didn't bother me this time....I took about 6 then I went back and had about 6 more and wasn't tempted to have any more. I did good with my food choices but the rest of the evening was real emotional for me...I thought about getting into the ice cream but I just went to bed instead.

This morning I went for a "polarbear swim" with my daughter (the pool was about 74 degrees), not too cold but it was fun first thing in the morning.....it was refreshing...and she loved it! I got about a 30 min work-out in. After that I got another migraine. And yes I got really hungry after it went away. So, if I stopped eating right now and didn't have dinner I would be on track......but I don't think I can skip dinner. I think I will make a salad. That will be good!

I feel like I'm a mess physically....with having these headaches and being emotional and feeling stressed, please pray for me. I do have some things going on but just trying to get through them with time and prayer. Trying to stay busy this week and not lay around and sleep on the couch. Sorry for all the venting.....just need to tell someone. Thanks for listening.

BBQ for dinner.....again!

This was a very healthy BBQ dinner. We went to some very good friends house for BBQ dinner on thursday. It was very nice and healthy too! We had salad and I brought a plate of cucumbers and tomato. They BBQed flank steak to go with it. The kids all had a couple of pieces, I had one small piece and my husband had none. We don't eat red meat on a regular basis and my hubby never eats it. Then they served ice cream after dinner. What were they thinking....it wasn't friday night....we only have ice cream on friday nights.....oh well, the kids loved it. I had one very small scoop. It was very nice not to have all the junk food that is usually at a BBQ. I was so happy to see that they did not invite those terrible "chips" to come......they just never leave me alone at BBQs and I'm getting fed up with them. :)

( When we were there I got to ride a "quad" for the very first time in my life......it was so much fun!)

Weigh-in Day...

So the scales say I lost 2 pounds this week. I'm not sure I believe it....but I will post it today. I hope it is telling me the truth because I certainly don't feel like I deserve it. I know things go up and down and I don't always have to understand why.... it just makes me nervous that it might be wrong and then next week I will show a gain or something. Oh well...I won't worry about it today.

I lost 2 pounds this week and I'm happy about that and I'm still continuing to try to make healthy choices in my life....food and otherwise.