from good to BAD...

Friday was such a good day. Saturday I felt terrible all day and felt like I could not get enough to eat. I had a headache all day and hurt everywhere... nothing helped. Sunday came too quickly! I napped after church. On Monday I woke up my feet did not fit in my shoes!!! I can't even make a fist with my hands.....I am retaining so much water!!!! I do not even want to attempt to get on the scale. My week was going so good but then I let things get outta whack and here I am all puffy. Trying to drink lots of water and eat healthy things (having a hard time keeping to it though). I need a pick-me-up!!

I did have something interesting to share.....I did something I never thought I would ever do this last week.....I worked at and attended a ROCK Concert......a CHRISTIAN ROCK CONCERT!!! It was exciting!!!
What have you done lately that is exciting and different??



These guys are reaching the youth of our nation with their music and a word from God!

good Friday...

I had a great day today! I got up and exercised for 45 minutes to start my day. I drank water and made mostly healthy food choices....I did eat an oatmeal raisin cookie when I was really hungry today....it was the only thing I could find in the car to eat and I hadn't eaten in 4 hours. I do feel good about it though because I didn't stop at a fast food drive in on my way home and it did have grains and fruit in it.....no chocolate.

I took my kids to a movie and then to get one of them their driving permit and the other one to get a haircut. My youngest had a party to go to but it got cancelled. We had a fun day though. I took my son to get a haircut at the mall...my sister works there. So, while we were waiting for his "cool orange streak" to get colored she trimmed my hair and curled it for me.....bouncy curls. :)
(check out the picture.....the curls are starting to loose their bounce by the time I took the picture)

Weigh-in Day...

I gained .2 of a pound this week. Not a big gain but, the third gain in a row! I haven't been as dedicated lately to making healthy choices, I have been letting the busyness of life get in the way. I am going to focus on me more and do things to take care of me in the middle of this busyness of life. That is one of my goals...to take care of me, I deserve it.

I found myself indulging a bit too much and too often in things I used to do like...eating chips....eating cookies and candy and coffee cake this week. When I checked into the HYC on tuesday it really helped me get back on track and to realize what I was doing was not good.

I deserve the gain that I had this week and hope to have a loss next week! I have already boosted up my activity.

I hope everyone is doing good this week and if not now is a good time to turn it around...don't wait till the next meal or tomorrow...start now! :)

what do I say ????......

I checked into the HYC last night....it is so good to see all the people working so hard on being healthy. I have not given up, I have just been extremely busy. I thought I would have more time to post after the holidays and being sick but I guess I was wrong. I miss being on here....blogging has helped to keep me accountable and to give me inspiration and motivation. I have been lacking in both of these since I have not been on here as much.

In the last week I have had 4 people notice that I have lost some weight. This is always a hard subject for me because I have tried to not let people know that I am trying to eat healthy. This was purely a personal decision based on my past with family and friends trying to tell me what I should and shouldn't eat and with people telling me what I can and can't eat instead of just leaving it up to me. I have had much better success doing it this way because if I want to have a piece of cake or some pizza I can choose to have it and not have others telling me "you can't eat that....you're on a diet!!" (like I didn't know). Now those people are starting to notice that I have lost some weight and I'm not prepared with what to say to them. Most of the time I have been able to just put them off and say things like "oh, no I don't know what you are talking about but thank you anyway" when they ask if I've been loosing weight. I don't want to lie but I need to have the power to make my own choices. It is getting harder because people are no longer asking but plain out noticing and saying things like "you have lost alot of weight...you look good" well, how do I respond?? I told someone this week "you just haven't seen me in a while".......I am at a loss for words.....I know I can't keep it a secret as I continue to lose but what do I say???

I haven't been as motivated lately. I have not been making as good of choices this week and I have not been exercising this week either. I worked all week for our church garage sale unpacking and organizing things for about 5 hours a day. I don't have a job outside of my home so this was quite different for me and it really opened my eyes to how you have to be prepared with your food so you can have healthy things around you. It gave me a new respect for those of you that are at work all day. I said I didn't exercise but I was moving all day while I was unpacking and organizing items for the sale, and cleaning up. Oh, and I guess I did go to class once last week on Wednesday.....I forgot about that.

All the compliments that I have gotten this week really make me want to work harder. I hope I can make use of this new motivation!!

Wow, it's been awhile...

I can't believe it has been soooo long since I've posted. I have not given up on myself or any of you, I have just been busy with Christmas, then I got really sick on Christmas day I could not even talk and spent the day sleeping. I recovered from that and then got something else right after and was sick for another week. Well, I'm all better now.....mostly, a cough here and there but, mostly better.

I have been doing my weigh-ins and as you can see they have been all over the place. I have been trying to make healthy choices still. I did get a bit overwhelmed with food at the holidays but I was still in control of my choices....some good...... some not so good! But I never felt bad about the choices I made. I allowed myself to eat things I wanted and then moved on without over doing the bad foods...just had to have a bit to get the urge out of my brain. That way I don't feel deprived and then really overdue the unhealthy foods. I even had some of the nacho chips and cream cheese that I talked about being a bad habit that I have dropped. I had some, and it was good but, I didn't eat the amount that I used to and I don't feel the need to have it all the time now. My feelings about food are changing....I can tell.

I lost 2.8 lbs. this week.....by the way I got a new digital scale, it is much easier to get my weight with this one. I'm not used to the tenths of a pound yet, I'm so used to whole numbers or guessing halves. I also got a new badge a couple of weeks ago if you didn't notice. I added the 30 pounds lost badge by the end of the year....I was so excited......then the next week I gained and put me back up but now I am back down and planning on going down even more this year!

I have been getting in some activity and doing class 2 days a week. My biggest struggle is getting in my water and eating enough veggies and eating more throughout the day, not skipping meals (then I get really hungry and want to eat everything).

One of my goals is to give myself more time to get on my blog.....me time....this is what helps me....all of you that inspire me!

Shock of the day...

Today was my son's birthday and we took him into town to get some ice cream. I didn't get one but I did have a few bites. We went shopping and then decided to go out to eat for a birthday dinner. The reason I am sharing this with you is that I had a shocker today! We went for Mexican food and when we got there they seated us at one of those dreadful circular booths that everyone has to scoot around in it to sit. Ok...I'll be last and sit on the edge. Well, everyone had a different idea than I had and of course wanted me to sit in the middle. Oh no....I can't do this....I do not want to squeeze into that booth and be so uncomfortable that I can not breath. Shock, shock....I fit...and I was able to scoot around the table with room to spare...about 2 inches even!! Well, that was my shock of the day. I didn't order healthy though. I ordered sour cream chicken enchiladas....I did only eat half of it.

Weigh-in Day...feeling tired, grumpy, and puffy!

I weighed in on thursday and gained .5 of a pound. Not feeling too good about it but, I did eat healthy this week. I haven't been drinking water like I should. I am feeling really tired, everyone in my family has been sick. I'm also a bit grumpy and puffy.....not a good combination. Christmas is coming so fast and I am not prepared at all. Oh well, I'll get everything done and all will turn out good I'm sure....it always does.

Bad habits gone forever....

I started thinking about the "bad sour cream habit" that I no longer have and it lead me to thinking other habits that I have given up this year. Mayo is one of them and butter on toast. I rarely even eat toast any more. When I was in highschool I used to love to come home and make 2-4 pieces of white bread toast slathered in butter......mmmmm it was so good and it really smoothed over all the problems that I had a school that day and I felt so much better (I thought anyway). What I didn't realize was that that good tasting toast was really making things worse for me at school by making me gain even more weight. I still like toast but it is not my comforter and usually If I'm even going to have a piece it will be whole grain and very little or no butter. I do eat whole grain bagels a few times a week. Back to another bad habit dropped.....creamy salad dressings like bleu cheese or ranch dripping all over a wonderful salad. Cheese....cheese on everything at every meal. My whole family used to eat so much cheese we would buy 20 pounds every month. I cut everyone back. Now it is a treat rather than a staple.

These are just a few of the bad habits that I no longer have this year. If I had more time I could think of a few more....Oh another one....a big one...if you read my blog in the beginning the chips were always calling me and jumping in my mouth when I least expected it well, no more of that! I am in charge of those chips now!!

Please tell me about some of your bad habits that you have changed and the ones that are still hanging around. I challenge you to write about it in your blog and link back to mine to get the word around. Please leave me a comment letting me know if you did it so I can go read it.
Have a GREAT day! Hope to hear from everyone.

*OH...I can't believe I forgot about the chips and cream cheese. I did the same thing as Cara only it was nacho cheese Doritos (or any chips if I didn't have those....especially jalapeno chips) and cream cheese. I started it in high school and it was my favorite snack food every time we went on vacation or had a special thing to celebrate or just when I wanted to celebrate! I did have some this summer with mango salsa over the cream cheese....that counts as a little healthy doesn't it?? :) I haven't done that in so long that I forgot about it.

Weigh-in Day...

I lost .5 pound this week. I thought I was going to lose more but I'll still be happy with .5. I am so close to getting that 30 pounds lost badge....I just want to get there so bad.
I had a great week. I am up and moving a lot lately. I have been eating healthy. I have not been drinking as much water....maybe thats the problem. ??
I have to share with you something that has NEVER EVER happened before in my house. I went to get out the sour cream for dinner last night and it was bad! Spoiled sour cream......growing mold.....I have never in my life ever seen such a thing! I am so amazed at this because I used to eat so much sour cream on everything that it NEVER had a chance to go bad!!! I always used it so fast that it couldn't even think of going bad. I threw it out and didn't even miss it!! I am so happy about that! One bad habit gone in the trash!
I have a lot to do today and better get going on it.
Have a great day!

uuugghhh!...

My sister got married last night. I have mixed feelings about it. I want her to be happy but I've seen her be miserable with him for the last 5 years. God can do miracles though.....I do believe that. I had a few comments from some people there last night. The good one first...."You sure are looking good!". But the one that bothered me was the....."So now that you are getting skinny you can wear something pretty". Not sure how to take that one. My husband and my friend both say it's just jealousy talking. This is one of the reasons I didn't want to tell people that I am trying to get healthy, I have a hard time with the rude comments. It wouldn't be so bad if it were just strangers that I didn't know and didn't have to see again but......it's my family. Then they start making judgment on what I should and shouldn't eat at every family gathering. I have found myself overeating or eating the wrong things just so I won't get any comments from them....I try to make it look like I am still eating unhealthy just so they won't feel guilty about what they eat and take it out on me. Is this CRAZY or what? And I'm the one who always stands up for myself in most other situations....especially with my family. uuugghhhh!
The dress I wore was cute. It was dark blue and short....well, to my knees, I usually wear dresses that are pretty long so this was different for me. It felt fun on and I did feel good in it. But after I saw some pictures of me in it I felt terrible. I said " am never wearing that dress again". It is sleeveless but I wore a t-shirt under it kinda like a jumper hoping to somewhat cover my arms. Well, I should have wore a sweatshirt under it......my arms looked so huge.....I'm embarrassed now. I cropped my arm out of the photo. So here I am .....armless! lol

I got the final results of my test and had a few excellents on it and mostly goods! I was a bit shocked considering the person that was scoring me. She was a very small young skinny girl and I felt really intimidated. I had the best testing partner though!

Great test...

My test went GREAT! It was the most challenging one yet! I did it and I think I did well! I will get official results on Monday. I felt so good afterwards.
Yesterday we went hiking up in the woods to get a Christmas tree. It was so much fun. And I didn't get out of breath as much as I have in the past.....I have always loved going hiking though, tromping around in the woods. No snow this year, the kids were a bit bummed. The sunshine was beautiful! I'm kinda glad there was no snow. The kids always talk me into getting on a snowboard or something and I just know I'm going to break my neck! They love it and think it is the best thing to watch mom try to do what they are doing.
Well, my sister is getting married tonight so lots to do today.
I'm working on a plan of healthy eating for the entire day, won't get in any exercise today I don't think. I'll just be busy!
Have a great day!

Busy week...

I had a good week. I've been real busy again this week and not much time to post. I stayed the same on the scale this week. I am glad not to have a gain. I didn't really over eat on Thanksgiving Day but I had a hard time with left overs and then we had a banquet on Sunday to go to and TOM is here all in one week. So I'm really happy I didn't gain.
I have a test tonight and I am not feeling up to it. I hope I feel better after a shower and getting ready to go, maybe a cup of coffee. I know that I can only do my best and that will have to do.....I just get so worried about it.
I am working on getting more activity and drinking my water this week. I am one pound away from getting a new HYC badge and I really want to make that goal. I wanted to get to 30 pounds lost by today but, did not happen. It's ok.....I'll do it but, just not by today obviously.
Hope everyone is having a good week......if anyone even still reads anything here.......I barley have the time to post anymore. There are so many good blogs out there.