Early weigh-in this week...

So I decided to do an early weigh-in this week because we are going camping and I'm afraid that if I wait I might not get to post a loss when I get back.
I lost 4 pounds this week. I can only really claim 1 of those as a true loss, the other 3 are from the gain last week.
In any case I do feel good and I'm happy that I had a loss.
I'm planning on being healthy when I go camping this week.....I'll check back in when we get back.

I hope you are all doing well this week.....smile and stay positive.....everyday is a new day!

Wishing everyone sunny days!!

Sunny days mostly this week...

I think I did really good this week with food choices.....a few not so good but mostly good. I did not get to exercise though because of my ankle injury....I think it's getting better. I hope the scale shows the same.

It is so strange to have to eat to lose weight! the more I eat the more I lose....healthy things that is. I spent my whole life being told to not eat so much and to quit eating that I had gotten into starvation mode and my body does not want to let go of the extra pounds. Now I find out that it is not how much I was eating mostly but, the wrong things and not often enough for my body to use up what I did eat, I was storing it for a rainy day I guess. Well, I've had enough rainy days in my life and am not storing up any more pounds. I'm praying for sunny days!! It is so different to try to eat like this but it feels good! Now I am actually hungry more than once a day and not having to eat a huge meal to feel full. It's more like nibbling all day and I was told NOT to do that my whole life.
A new way of eating for me! Sunny days ahead!

Hey, I am going camping this week and I'm a bit nervous because in the past it has been an excuse to eat junk food and not watch what I eat at all......eat like the kids! SMORES and hot chocolate. I have packed some healthy things and some treats too. I am just praying for self control, to be good to myself and not stuff myself just because I'm sitting there with nothing else to do. I'm hoping to do some walking. The kids and hubby are planning a big hike and I don't think I should do it because of my ankle, it needs to get better before the 13th. I think I'll walk the dog when they are doing their hike. Oh, and remember to drink my water!!

I think I will do an early weigh-in tomorrow before I go.

It's a new Day...

OMG'sh I can't believe it....my scales are up another 3 pounds this morning!!!! That's 6 pounds!! What's up with that? I'm so glad I DO NOT have to record another 3 pound gain again today. My first thought was I need a new scale.....but then I just said... I'll just work hard this week...I'll be industrious about eating healthy, then see what the scales says next week on the official weigh-in day.

Today truely was a new day!! I made healthy choices all day today and really felt good about it. I got back to eating more often and I did not skip a meal today. I drank my water today too. I did not exercise today. My ankle has been really hurting and I'm trying to give it a rest so I can get back to my class on the 3rd. After that only 10 days to the big class event for this term. Will I be ready??? we'll see!

Thanks to those of you that stopped by and left me some encouraging words....it really helps to read something nice from someone out there who is struggling with the same things in life and has been there, they really understand how you feel. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this world of temptation.
Thanks again......you guys are my inspiration!!

Weigh-in Day...

I am so unhappy..... :(
I gained 3 lbs. this week! so I ate chips and dip.....how stupid was that?
I was so happy about getting to 20lbs. lost that I got a bit too relaxed with my eating habits.
I have not been on plan this last week. I was not recording what I ate and I have not been exercising. I also have not been drinking water. I have been skipping meals too. wow I can really see why I gained 3 lbs.

Ok...back to plan...tomorrow is a new day and I will not let this get me down (I did for a short time today and ate chips and dip, oh and cookies with coffee) but it didn't make me feel better...it made me feel worse in fact, I'm retaining so much water too.

I am not going to give back my bling yet though....I will try to get back to the 20lbs. lost first. if I don't do it in 2 weeks, I will take it off.

Weigh-in Day...

Wow, it's weigh-in day again already. The week flew by! I lost another pound this week.
Sometimes I wish I would lose more each week but then I remember that slow is better in the long run. I've done fast before and it works for a short time then I gain it all back plus more. I have been really happy that I have lost 20 pounds (21 now) but I get so discouraged when I think about how much I still weigh or look in the mirror and see that I have so much more to go....I have to press on....I will keep going....it just gets me down sometimes.

This month in my class we are talking about industriousness: industrious- diligent and hard working.
Industriousness? in plain language it means, you have to work- and work hard. There is no substitute for work, none. Worthwhile things come only from real work. It is essential to success and only you know if you are really doing it -
giving it everything you've got!

You can work without being industrious, but you cannot be industrious without work.

I takes work to achieve a goal...any goal. I am wanting to achieve a couple different goals in my life right now, one being weight loss...the other being goals to achieve in my class and the weight loss will help with this. Am I really working to my full extent to achieve this ?? I think I could work harder at it but, I also trying to make it a life change and ease into it by changing bad eating habits so they will stay with me the rest of my life. I definitely could be exercising more often !

I am coming up on another test in my class and can see that I really need to be working on that if I want to score well and achieve this short term goal....which will get me closer to the long term goal. The long term goal is becoming more in sight than I ever thought possible. I can't wait to feel that way about my weight loss goal.

Tell me what are your thoughts about industriousness... are you working hard at achieving your goal? What do you do to work hard? What helps you keep focused on your goal? Could you work harder? What would motivate you to work harder?

Weigh-in Day...

It's actually still Thursday for me, I have not been to bed yet. I have been so busy it is not funny. 0_o But I had to get this posted. I am so excited! I lost 1 lb. this week and that puts me at 20 lbs. lost !!!! one pound at a time!
I am so happy,
I got to get a new "20 lbs. lost badge". and...
I got to put another heart on my "healthy hearts" tracker that I made. and...
I got to check off another goal, actually I checked off two because I felt so good about myself today too. and...
I got to mack that ticker say "20 lbs. lost and 50 to go"
I can't believe I got so excited over this. OK, I will settle down....but I also have to tell you I am pulling clothes out of my closet and my drawer that I haven't wore in years but saved because I loved it ( you know the story). I wore a cute shirt today that has really never fit me from the time I got it, it was always too tight and I was never comfortable in it. Now it fits, and my husband thought I bought a new top......he said it looks realllllly good on me. :)
I have felt so good all day about making it to that 20 lbs. lost goal.

I hope every one is doing good this week and meeting your weekly or daily goals.

HYC check-in......

I love the HYC check-in on Tuesday. I weight in on Thursday and the HYC is like a mid-week reminder. Just to help me stay in check with what my goals are.

I had a better week this week. I'm getting back to some exercise and just feeling better. (Did double classes today.....2 hours) Not sure what the scale will say on weigh-in day (thurs.) but I'm hoping for at least 1 lb. lost so I can get that "20 lbs. lost badge".
Thanks to all of you who encouraged me last week, it really helped.

Good luck to all of you this week, I know you can do it. See ya

Weigh-in Day...

I lost a pound this week! Woo Hoo! I am so happy for that! One more pound and I can get that 20 pounds lost badge. I am starting to feel more recovered and up beat, not in as much pain everyday. Really wanting to get back to activities, I rode my bike for about 20-30 minutes last night, it felt so good to do something (even though the dog chased me and tried to bite my leg).
I'm going to my friends for lunch today, I'm praying for self control, she always has the most wonderful things to eat.
Sorry for a short post again but, I'm off to do a "polar bear" swim with my 8yr. old. The pool temp says 72˚. I'm not sure that 72˚ totally qualifies for "polar bear" swim but it will be chilly! O_o

Thank you to all of you with encouraging words...it really helps!

HYC check in......

I'm still in a bit of a fog and trying to figure out how to be intent on losing weight. I had a couple of down days this week and really felt like there was no point in trying but I got over it. I did do too much comfort eating this week too. Being sick and recovering from physical pain makes me weak to comfort foods. I'm still hanging in there but need a bit of a boost.

Weight-in Day & INTENTNESS cont.....

So today is weigh-in day....I stayed the same this week and I'm not too upset but, more so, it has given me a new strength to look at what I am doing in my life, what makes a difference, and to be content with what life brings my way as long as I know I am still tying to be healthy and not giving up. My life has been out of order the last few weeks but I believe it will be getting back is some sort of order soon. I am trying to take care of myself and get healed up so I can get back with more exercise, I have realized how important exercise is and what a large part it plays in losing weight. I am on light activity for a couple more weeks but will be back on track soon!

As you know I have been posting about INTENTNESS. Here are a few more thoughts about intentness that I want to share with you.

Intentness can mean determination, it can mean persistence, it can mean tenacity or perseverance.
Intentness is the ability to resist temptation and stay on course, to concentrate on your objective with determination and resolve. Impatience is wanting too much too soon. Intentness doesn't involve wanting something. It involves doing something often for a very long time, possibly a lifetime.

The road to real achievement is usually bumpy and long, but you do not give up. You may have setbacks. You may have to start over. You may have to change your methods. You may have to go around, or over, or under on your path. You may have to back up and start again. But you do not quit. You stay the course. To do this....you must have INTENTNESS.

Be persistent. Be determined. Be tenacious. Be completely determined to reach your goal, what every it may be. That's intentness. If you stay intent and your ability warrants it, you will eventually reach the top of the mountain that you are tying to climb.


Thinking about intentness has inspired me and I have wanted to share it with you. I'm not sure where I am with intentness yet.
I feel like I am in a fog right now and searching for the path, fumbling along the way. I do believe I have seen the warning signs out there that lead me of the path but most of the time I choose to ignore them. Somehow thinking I know better, not trusting that the warning is real, only to fall in to a deeper fog and way off the path headed in a different direction. I'm trying to get my fog lights hooked up and running so I can see a little clearer down the path! Being intent on reaching my small goals is helping me see where I want to be even though the path is still foggy.

I hope you are all being intent on reaching your goal....no matter what it is big or small.....let me know where you are in the fog and what you are being intent on. Hope every one is having a great week......and remember.....never give up!
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Can you see beyond the fog.....

Last week I posted a bit about INTENTNESS and I ask.....what are your thoughts on intentness? tell me how you are being intent.. I loved what you had to say about INTENTNESS!!

Felicia said...
What a great post!! Lets see, I am intent on never going back to what I was nor letting life drag me back there. I am intent on always facing forward and not letting the pot holes suck me down. I am intent on being, every day, better then I was the day before. I am intent on being the best me not only for me but to me.

dadivastreet said...
I am intent on following my goal to be healthier. I am intent on identifying the triggers that keep me from obtaining my goal.

Cammy said...
Intentness is huge in trying to become fit. It requires that we remain focused and committed to this one purpose, not ignoring other needs but incorporating them into the fitworld (rather than the other way around.)

Twix said...
Hmmm, intentness. This week I will accomplish the goals I set forth for myself!

Thank you all for your great comments! I was so Inspired by them!! I would love to hear from more of you if you get a chance to leave a comment.

This week I have been thinking about the "fog" in life. The things that come up in life that seem to fog up your goals and make it hard to see the light. As I've said before I have a hard time seeing the ending goal of my weight loss. It seems so far away....I can't even imagine what it will be like because I have never been there. Sometimes I feel as if I can't reach the goal because I can't see it. I'm not sure what it looks like. Or how to get there.
Right now I have been focusing on small goals of losing 5 pounds at a time and that is helping me "see" where I'm going. Five pounds is not so far off in the fog that I can't see it. I can see 5 pounds on the scale and I can feel it in the way my clothes fit. This is so much more attainable to me. It is still hard to get to where I am going and takes focus but I can "see" more clearly to losing 5 pounds. Eventually the small goals will add up to a big goal some day and I will be able to see more clearly where I am going. I had a foggy week this last week not knowing where I was going at all (you can read the post before this one to understand why I say that).

Do you have a clear view of your goal or are you in a fog? If you have a clear view, how did you get there? What are some ways you use to "see" through the fog? Do you set small goals? reward yourself? (I want to give myself rewards but haven't figured out a good system yet) Put your fog lights on and leave me a comment, I love hearing from all of you, let me know where you are in the fog and how you cope with it.

It's been a long week.....

It's been a week since I posted last. I've been through a lot of things in this last week.
First, I will go back to weigh-in day....thursday. I did weigh-in that morning before heading to the hospital. I lost 1 lb. last week. I was pretty happy about that, but just didn't have the energy to get on here and post.

So, when I went in for my yearly exam this year I had a bad mammogram. I skipped last years because I couldn't bring myself to make the appointment....because I had a bad mammogram the year before too. (Don't ask me for the reasoning there....one would think if you had a bad test one year you would want to be on top of things for the next year.) Any way I had to have biopsies 2 years ago and it was not fun. They turned out to be benign and I recovered but it was a tough time for me in my life and I felt so alone, I couldn't bare to go there again. So I finally made the appointment for this year and once again a bad mammogram! This time it was worse...I had to have 14 core biopsies on the other side. I went to the hospital on thursday, this time not alone!! It is still very scary and stressful. It took the doctor 3 times the amount of time that they had planned and that made my husband worry as he sat in the waiting room but, I was glad to go a bit slow so I could have a breather in there. I called the nurse yesterday and she said the "unofficial" results were, they were all benign. I still have to get the official results when my doctor is in though, maybe today or tomorrow?? The heavy cloud lifted from my head after I heard the nurse say they were benign. I felt like doing something...energized...but too sore to jump or dance around. 0_o I wanted to ride my bike too, but my husband wouldn't let me yet. He is taking good care of me this time. But a lot of the time I just think I can do everything myself, I don't want anyone to think I'm a baby. I'm used to being independent and doing things for myself and everyone else it's hard to sit still and have others do things for me. I'm recovering well and will be back to doing everything as usual real soon!

Now that leads me up to the part of eating and being healthy for the last week. I have been real hungry since my biopsies! Mainly craving proteins and not eating enough of them and in turn eating too many carbs because I'm still hungry and I'm grabbing something quick! I really have tried to stay on plan but it has been so hard, my body is so out of it. My sleeping has been off and I couldn't do any exercise. I'm not trying to give excuses for anything, I'm just amazed at how something like this can throw your everyday routine off. I have been physically and emotionally weak! I have been eating ice cream with my husband at night again.....smaller portions....but still not good....this will need to stop!!! Yesterday I was very nervous about waiting for my results and hungry from going in town and doing my class (light activity). When I came home about 3:30pm I had a 1/2 bagel with some chicken on it and a couple of pringles. Then I did the old "that was sooooo good and made me feel soooo much better" that I made the other half of the bagel with chicken on it and ate it too. Then I was stuffed and not hungry for dinner but I ate dinner anyway. I dished up my dinner and then looked at it and put some back. I had mostly green beans a little bit of spaghetti but 2 pieces of bread and cheese all over the spaghetti. This week I could see some old habits creeping back in there like, eating just because it's there and emotional eating! My emotions have been all over the place and I have not had the energy to really focus on my eating habits...I didn't abandon it altogether though...I did try to stay in control of portions and I didn't give into every little opportunity to eat and be out of control even though It would have been real easy to just give up and not think about my food intake at all.