Weaknesses....

I weighed in yesterday and stayed the same. I have not been working hard to lose but, I have been still trying to make good choices.
We went camping again last week because my husband wanted to go one more time before the rain hits. I had a hard time with my ankle hurting. One day I was in tears because I couldn't go on a hike with everyone. My husband takes the kids on this really long 2 hour hike up the dunes every year and I have never been with them in 15 years. I have been so out of shape that I never felt like I could do it and didn't want to be embarrassed about it. This year I wanted to give it a try since I had ost a bit of weight and was feeling stronger, but I had hurt my ankle twice this summer and I didn't know how that was going to work. I wanted to go so bad with my family. I tried to go up the trail just to get to the hiking trail and I was out of breath and my ankle hurt so bad. This really made me feel ashamed that I couldn't even get up the trail to the hiking trail. So, I went back down crying and I did some walking on flat ground while they went up and down mountains. Mostly I have been trying to get healthy. I have had 2 injuries to my ankle, a minor surgery on the bridge of my nose with 4 stitches, and a cold.
I have learned a lot about some of my weaknesses over the last couple of weeks.
1. Being hurt is one of my weaknesses. When I am hurt I have a hard time eating healthy. Part of the reason is that it is not easy having someone else get your food if you cannot get up and move around. I have a hard time dictating to someone what I want to eat and how to prepare it. Even if you ask for a piece of toast you can't forget to tell them "No butter, please". When my husband cooks he loves to use a ton of oil (even though it is olive oil) and butter and cheese. I really don't want to dictate to him how to cook since he is doing it willingly in the first place. And the kids just don't get it when you ask them to make something a certain way.
2. Being sick is one of my weaknesses. This one for sure is comfort eating, and a bit of the same thing from being hurt.
3. Not enough sleep. I'm grouchy and don't really care what I eat. I do comfort eat for this reason too, hoping to feel better.
4. Being out of my usual setting, like camping or on vacation. This one is hard because I am not thinking about myself as much and usually just want to get everyone fed. Or a big one is having a treat because you are on vacation. I need to think of it as a vacation away from my usual stresses but, not away from healthy eating choices.
5. Stress is one of my weaknesses. As you might imagine I comfort eat when I feel stress. Some how I think it is going to make everything get better.
These are just a few of my overall weaknesses that I have been thinking about lately. I think all of them include some form of comfort eating. This something I need to work on. I need to find an alternative to food for comfort. ???? Maybe a cup of tea?

What are your weaknesses??? and please share with me what things you turn to for comfort

Weigh-in Day...

I'm still here. I've been real busy in the last couple of weeks. So I weighed in last week and had a 1 pound loss. This week I lost 1/2 pound. I did not stay on track too well this week with all that I have been doing, but I have still been trying to make healthy choices. I have not been exercising again....I hurt my ankle, in a different place this time, on Saturday at my test. I pulled a muscle in my calf. I am now walking on crutches. I did great at my test and passed with really good scores.
My family and I helped set up a huge "VeggieTales Live" show on Monday. It was so much fun to see how it all works and to get to be a part of it. I sold merchandise and took tickets.
On Tuesday I had surgery on my face. I had a cyst growing on the bridge of my nose.....it grew quickly over the last 2 months. The doctor cut it out and gave me 4 stitches across my nose. My nose is swollen and my eyes. It hurts too! So no class for me and no activities. :(
Everyday is getting better, and better, and better! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!
Wishing sunny days to you all!

Back from camping...

We are back from camping now. I had a great time camping. We did lots of walking everyday on the trails and roads in the campground. I did eat more food than I had planned but, still tried to make good choices most of the time. The kids on the other hand were out of control on their eating. They were hungry 24 hrs. a day! I would just get done fixing a meal and they would want something more! It was hard to keep up with them.
Yesterday was very busy for me running around town and getting back to normal mondays. I was a bit emotional and tired too and ate too much last night as a result. I'm emotional today too but so far not eating bad...mainly just grouchy!!! I have a lot of things piling up on me right now and it feels like a wave crashing down on me. I need to get organized and move on but I'm having a hard time prioritizing things. It makes my brain hurt.
Sunday night we rushed back into town just in the nick of time to help start the Restoration class at our church that my husband and I help out with. We have to be there tonight too. It is 2 nights a week for 12 weeks, intense but good material. I also have a test coming up on Saturday and am very nervous about it. My ankle is still in pain and this will make it hard to perform what I will need to do to pass. I also need to get the kids back to school soon here....and I haven't even ordered books this year! I've never been this disorganized. Well, thanks for listening to me complain about life. Things will get better, I know.
Praying for sunny days!!!

Hope everyone is doing good this week and I hope to be able to get on here a bit more this fall.....now that summer is over.

Early weigh-in this week...

So I decided to do an early weigh-in this week because we are going camping and I'm afraid that if I wait I might not get to post a loss when I get back.
I lost 4 pounds this week. I can only really claim 1 of those as a true loss, the other 3 are from the gain last week.
In any case I do feel good and I'm happy that I had a loss.
I'm planning on being healthy when I go camping this week.....I'll check back in when we get back.

I hope you are all doing well this week.....smile and stay positive.....everyday is a new day!

Wishing everyone sunny days!!

Sunny days mostly this week...

I think I did really good this week with food choices.....a few not so good but mostly good. I did not get to exercise though because of my ankle injury....I think it's getting better. I hope the scale shows the same.

It is so strange to have to eat to lose weight! the more I eat the more I lose....healthy things that is. I spent my whole life being told to not eat so much and to quit eating that I had gotten into starvation mode and my body does not want to let go of the extra pounds. Now I find out that it is not how much I was eating mostly but, the wrong things and not often enough for my body to use up what I did eat, I was storing it for a rainy day I guess. Well, I've had enough rainy days in my life and am not storing up any more pounds. I'm praying for sunny days!! It is so different to try to eat like this but it feels good! Now I am actually hungry more than once a day and not having to eat a huge meal to feel full. It's more like nibbling all day and I was told NOT to do that my whole life.
A new way of eating for me! Sunny days ahead!

Hey, I am going camping this week and I'm a bit nervous because in the past it has been an excuse to eat junk food and not watch what I eat at all......eat like the kids! SMORES and hot chocolate. I have packed some healthy things and some treats too. I am just praying for self control, to be good to myself and not stuff myself just because I'm sitting there with nothing else to do. I'm hoping to do some walking. The kids and hubby are planning a big hike and I don't think I should do it because of my ankle, it needs to get better before the 13th. I think I'll walk the dog when they are doing their hike. Oh, and remember to drink my water!!

I think I will do an early weigh-in tomorrow before I go.

It's a new Day...

OMG'sh I can't believe it....my scales are up another 3 pounds this morning!!!! That's 6 pounds!! What's up with that? I'm so glad I DO NOT have to record another 3 pound gain again today. My first thought was I need a new scale.....but then I just said... I'll just work hard this week...I'll be industrious about eating healthy, then see what the scales says next week on the official weigh-in day.

Today truely was a new day!! I made healthy choices all day today and really felt good about it. I got back to eating more often and I did not skip a meal today. I drank my water today too. I did not exercise today. My ankle has been really hurting and I'm trying to give it a rest so I can get back to my class on the 3rd. After that only 10 days to the big class event for this term. Will I be ready??? we'll see!

Thanks to those of you that stopped by and left me some encouraging words....it really helps to read something nice from someone out there who is struggling with the same things in life and has been there, they really understand how you feel. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this world of temptation.
Thanks again......you guys are my inspiration!!

Weigh-in Day...

I am so unhappy..... :(
I gained 3 lbs. this week! so I ate chips and dip.....how stupid was that?
I was so happy about getting to 20lbs. lost that I got a bit too relaxed with my eating habits.
I have not been on plan this last week. I was not recording what I ate and I have not been exercising. I also have not been drinking water. I have been skipping meals too. wow I can really see why I gained 3 lbs.

Ok...back to plan...tomorrow is a new day and I will not let this get me down (I did for a short time today and ate chips and dip, oh and cookies with coffee) but it didn't make me feel better...it made me feel worse in fact, I'm retaining so much water too.

I am not going to give back my bling yet though....I will try to get back to the 20lbs. lost first. if I don't do it in 2 weeks, I will take it off.

Weigh-in Day...

Wow, it's weigh-in day again already. The week flew by! I lost another pound this week.
Sometimes I wish I would lose more each week but then I remember that slow is better in the long run. I've done fast before and it works for a short time then I gain it all back plus more. I have been really happy that I have lost 20 pounds (21 now) but I get so discouraged when I think about how much I still weigh or look in the mirror and see that I have so much more to go....I have to press on....I will keep going....it just gets me down sometimes.

This month in my class we are talking about industriousness: industrious- diligent and hard working.
Industriousness? in plain language it means, you have to work- and work hard. There is no substitute for work, none. Worthwhile things come only from real work. It is essential to success and only you know if you are really doing it -
giving it everything you've got!

You can work without being industrious, but you cannot be industrious without work.

I takes work to achieve a goal...any goal. I am wanting to achieve a couple different goals in my life right now, one being weight loss...the other being goals to achieve in my class and the weight loss will help with this. Am I really working to my full extent to achieve this ?? I think I could work harder at it but, I also trying to make it a life change and ease into it by changing bad eating habits so they will stay with me the rest of my life. I definitely could be exercising more often !

I am coming up on another test in my class and can see that I really need to be working on that if I want to score well and achieve this short term goal....which will get me closer to the long term goal. The long term goal is becoming more in sight than I ever thought possible. I can't wait to feel that way about my weight loss goal.

Tell me what are your thoughts about industriousness... are you working hard at achieving your goal? What do you do to work hard? What helps you keep focused on your goal? Could you work harder? What would motivate you to work harder?

Weigh-in Day...

It's actually still Thursday for me, I have not been to bed yet. I have been so busy it is not funny. 0_o But I had to get this posted. I am so excited! I lost 1 lb. this week and that puts me at 20 lbs. lost !!!! one pound at a time!
I am so happy,
I got to get a new "20 lbs. lost badge". and...
I got to put another heart on my "healthy hearts" tracker that I made. and...
I got to check off another goal, actually I checked off two because I felt so good about myself today too. and...
I got to mack that ticker say "20 lbs. lost and 50 to go"
I can't believe I got so excited over this. OK, I will settle down....but I also have to tell you I am pulling clothes out of my closet and my drawer that I haven't wore in years but saved because I loved it ( you know the story). I wore a cute shirt today that has really never fit me from the time I got it, it was always too tight and I was never comfortable in it. Now it fits, and my husband thought I bought a new top......he said it looks realllllly good on me. :)
I have felt so good all day about making it to that 20 lbs. lost goal.

I hope every one is doing good this week and meeting your weekly or daily goals.

HYC check-in......

I love the HYC check-in on Tuesday. I weight in on Thursday and the HYC is like a mid-week reminder. Just to help me stay in check with what my goals are.

I had a better week this week. I'm getting back to some exercise and just feeling better. (Did double classes today.....2 hours) Not sure what the scale will say on weigh-in day (thurs.) but I'm hoping for at least 1 lb. lost so I can get that "20 lbs. lost badge".
Thanks to all of you who encouraged me last week, it really helped.

Good luck to all of you this week, I know you can do it. See ya

Weigh-in Day...

I lost a pound this week! Woo Hoo! I am so happy for that! One more pound and I can get that 20 pounds lost badge. I am starting to feel more recovered and up beat, not in as much pain everyday. Really wanting to get back to activities, I rode my bike for about 20-30 minutes last night, it felt so good to do something (even though the dog chased me and tried to bite my leg).
I'm going to my friends for lunch today, I'm praying for self control, she always has the most wonderful things to eat.
Sorry for a short post again but, I'm off to do a "polar bear" swim with my 8yr. old. The pool temp says 72˚. I'm not sure that 72˚ totally qualifies for "polar bear" swim but it will be chilly! O_o

Thank you to all of you with encouraging words...it really helps!

HYC check in......

I'm still in a bit of a fog and trying to figure out how to be intent on losing weight. I had a couple of down days this week and really felt like there was no point in trying but I got over it. I did do too much comfort eating this week too. Being sick and recovering from physical pain makes me weak to comfort foods. I'm still hanging in there but need a bit of a boost.