Weigh-in Day...

It was close but I did it...I lost 1 more pound this week!! I can get that 15 lbs. lost badge from HYC now. Wow, how did I do that? The time has gone by so quickly. The support from all of you has really helped me tremendously!

I'm so happy to be able to say I've lost 15 lbs. now. Although, I'm NOT telling anyone but my immediate family and you guys, of course. (It's hard to keep my kids from saying anything to people though, they are happy because I'm happy but, they don't understand why I don't want to tell everyone.) I fear everyone else, with all their comments and expectations I know that I can never live up to being what they want me to be or looking the way they think I should or lose the weight the way they say I should. OH, and....people saying "oh you can't have that you're on a diet". And friends that put pressure on themselves because they think they need to be losing weight so they avoid being around you because you might somehow make them look bad. That's some of why I had given up for so long....I was always a failure at losing weight. Oh, I could lose some here and there but would always gain it back mostly because I starved myself to lose it, then when I started eating again I just gained it back.
NO MORE OF THAT!! I am going to be healthy at what ever weight it is that I'm at, and going to do that by making good food choices and portion sizes, listening to when I'm full and when I'm hungry, drinking water, moving this body around for some exercise, taking my vitamin, getting more sleep, laughing every day, giving hugs and feeling good!

I was on here almost everyday this week reading and checking into the HYC but, I didn't write anything all week. I thought about a lot of things though. I was starting to think I was giving up and slowly going back to my old eating habits. But then it hit me last night....some of the things that have happened to me in the past 8 weeks.

My family all had ice cream last night and I had 2 bites and never felt the need to eat a bowl for myself....I was not deprived because I knew that I could have some if I wanted too! I was not restricted from it.

I have been not as focused on food lately as I used to be. Even though I do think more about what I'm going to eat, food is not so important to me anymore.

I have not been turning to food for comfort as much....it always makes me feel worse in the end anyway!!

I am full with smaller portions too! (And feel better after eating less.)

OH!, and I can't forget....my clothes are getting baggy!!

So, I did feel like I was getting a little too relaxed about losing weight and starting to go backwards but now I've realized some of the things that have changed in my life and they are so good that I really want to work hard at keeping the new changes.....I'm not going to give up. I know it's not always going to be this easy but wow, 15 lbs lost is more than I've lost in the last 8 years. This time I want to do this for ME !! Those of you that have been at this longer than I have and are still hanging in there....good times and bad..... you are my inspiration to keep going. This is a lifetime commitment!

I will be looking on here to some of your blogs for support over the weekend....the BBQs and all that good food!!! Holidays and parties are hard for me....there are too many choices....I usually want it ALL!!! but I will be trying hard to make good choices for me !